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I debated blogging today, but I got bored and was tired of looking at Greek. I can't really play games here, nor can I take a nap. So I guess I'll blog a bit.
I am trying to be happy. So this will be a happy post. Some of you might find it offensive if I start bragging about my perfect gf, but :P.
Things I am thankful for: Kaylynn, family, friends, a brother, sisters, parents, karate lessons, piano lessons, SWCCG, school, work, car, house, roommates, peanut butter, church, Bible, spankings, tree swing, tree fort, graduating, nerf fights, MTG, NES - etc, barn/silo, trees, woods, neighbors, cousins, uncles, pastor, health, intellect, dogs, cats, hamsters, Grandparents, birthday parties, hot fudge sunday cake, tuna salad, amusement parks, debates, homeschooling, gym class, PACEs, english, math, chocolate milk, pogo stick, grappling hook, pushups, pullups, Christmas, guns, swords, weapons and warriors, star wars, movies, carmel brownies, good advice, texas hold'em, Sierra games, ebay, google, computers, phone, e-mail, chat, wow, MUDs, Turretin, a beautiful gf, close friends, generous people, trust, green grass/trees, water, USA, hymns, preaching, pork, beef, pizza, baptists, reformers, quiz team, new friends, faithful God, blogs, forums, a helpful gf, suits and ties, WoT series, tacos, lake house, table games, computer science, Sunday School, youth group, IQ tests, sherlock holmes, shakespeare, mini-bike, paper route, sleep, dreams, memory, salvation, physics, algebra, volleyball, trips to FL, ocean, common sense, competition, a gf that loves me, verse memorization after breakfast, review of sunday school after Sunday dinner, going through Revelation at dinner, devotions before bed, pullups, pushups, pillow fights, waterbed, correct grammar, poetry, stories, good lit, good profs, rubic's cube, homestarrunner, gifts, blue skies, rain, storms, power outages, people I trust, that MI and WI aren't that far away, 4th of July, waterfights, laughing, my gf's smile, piano, violin, weddings, vacations, thanksgiving, spring break, pool, BK, managing, working out, ADTEO, Calvin and Hobbes, Dilbert, applesauce and chips, sloppy joe, sunglasses, buffet, memorial day, fall festival, candy bags, hay rides, lava man, trampoline, wrestling, dinosaurs, catching the dinosaur, wheelbarrow dart guns, hot cocoa, snow forts, being in love, people who actually care, chess, ping pong, home made bread, heat, biblical promises. . . etc.
Yeah, I'm sure I missed something. Oh well. It was good for me to think up the list anyway. I had been considering a list something like it back last semester I think, but never got to it. Hope your day is going well. Cheer up! =D 5:45
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Thursday, September 6, 2007
bah
So apparently someone made a comment to my boss about my GF coming down to the office and chatting with me. It isn't like its a closed place or anything or that there arent lots of people in here. There is huge window on the main wall, and ths door stays open. But meh. . .so, she's allowed to visit, just not stay a long time. . . . . . .whatever that means. I am sick of Christian College rules. Seriously.
We needed to run down the road a ways to get my car because I parked at the other end of campus and we were going to take my roommates car. But no, we couldn't do that because we can't be in the same car together. So we had to walk. Walking doesn't bother me, but she was going to be late for work, and we needed to get going. . .and then we have a stupid rule.
And now, she can't come do her homework here, or just chat. I'm sick of this place. She just showed up. She doesn't want to go home. . . .It doesn't make sense either. I can go workout, play ball, run on the treadmill. I just can't sit in the hall with my gf? Apparently not.
This is going too make this whole semester entirely too long. I work every night, and she was planning on coming to visit. Now, she probably won't be playing VB with us either b/c she won't have anywhere to go for that 1-1.5 hrs before we start.
Bleh! That ruined my night. I was all excited because we have VB tonight. I'm hungry now too.
Why did I come to school again? Wasn't it for a wife? Really? I suppose a degree was part of it. But now that I realize the value this degree actually has, it is kinda discouraging.
VB should be fun tonight. We have 6-8 coming. I hope. It isn't a matter of people wanting to, just a matter of them remembering.
I get bonus points if I study Greek 6 hours a week. Now with all the homework I have I thought that would be easy . . . I'm still two hours short. And I need them in tonight. I do have a quiz to study for. but if I start doing next week's homework then I will have less time spent next week. I'll be fine....eventually its going to be harder homework and it will take 6 hours....I hope?
So she brought me some spaghetti, and pudding, and bread, and carrots, and cookies. It was a good dinner. Yes, she is spoiling me....but she's allowed to.
I need $10k. That would make half the worries I have go away. . . . . .well, maybe more than that. The other half is annoying, but they aren't monetary which means I they have other solutions. Most of my problems are monetary, however. Car, ring, wedding, honeymoon, loans, rent, food, books. . . .etc.
After thinking about it....I'm not going to play the lottery. Yes, I know, you are all disappointed, but I figure I just won't do it. Even though, I could win 283 mil by just buying 1 ticket. No, I'm not going to do it.
Sooooooooo, how do I get some money? I put some apps in. Now I wait. . .I wanted to type "I just don't want to worry anymore." but then I thought...I shouldn't be worrying anyway. Yes, I should trust God to provide for my needs. But then I wonder at what point are these things needs? Yes, I want to get her a nice ring, and have a nice wedding. . .but is that a need? Because then I worry. So, is the money for the ring I want a need? I am supposed to wait on God's timing. If I don't get the money, then does that mean we postpone the wedding? I doubt we would do that. If we have no money, we just cut back on what we want.....but it isn't as if we want something extravagant. Just something nice. So....maybe I'm just supposed to go to Covance and maybe that will all work out and then I won't be wondering anymore. right? Sure.
My brother hasn't called me in forever. He said he was going to. . . .
My problem: All his life have I looked away... to the future, to the horizon. Never my mind on where I was. Hmm? What I was doing. Hmph.
This is true. I dont ever remember being happy where i was.....i was always waiting to be happy....i hated school but I did it because I needed to prepare. Same with college. Now Grad school. I'm sick of preparing.....I want to live. but in all that time, I never really enjoyed life. =/
I mean I had fun. I did enjoy stuff...but I spent my days daydreaming about the future. I spent college just wanting to be done. The thing is, that I do enjoy life more now. . .but I hate restrictions. When I start enjoying life and then get told "no, there is a rule" I just want to move past the rules. Days off were good not because I could do something, but because I didn't have to do something I didn't want to do.
There were things I enjoyed. SWCCG. I loved spending time with my cousins and brother. I loved the 4th and Christmas. But the more I enjoyed them, the more I disliked everything else. I just wanted to do those things again. Then it was WoW. I enjoyed WoW for a while.
Now I'm in love. Its more than playing cards or video games. I'm tired of looking forward all the time. I love spending time with Kaylynn. We have fun. We enjoy each other's company. I don't feel I need to move on from the moment, until its over, and I think that if we were not "here" it wouldn't have to be over. I feel like I live in "highs" and "lows" and am not steady. I don't remember thinking my parents were like this. It just seemed that they were used to life. . .is that what happens? You just get used to life? I don't want to get used to dealing with all this. I don't want to deal with it. I look at "adults" and I see things I don't want. And I wonder why they would want it, then I think that of course they don't, and I wonder how they can be happy. Then b/c I can't figure that out I assume they aren't. And then I tell myself I don't want to end up like that. Maybe they are happy though?
Some people have jobs they love. They wouldn't be doing anything else. Then there are other people; they can't stand their jobs. Then you hear messages: "If you are doing what you should you will be happy." Well, of course you will be happy. . .but does that mean that you are going to have to take a job you hate? I know lots and lots of people who have had jobs they hated doing. I don't want to dread going to work. It scares me that I'm going to for the rest of my life. I know that's worry too. . . . . . . . .I'm trying, but its hard.
Joseph was in prison. Did he like it, or was he just content? Jesus was scorned and mocked. Did he like it, or was he content? So, apparently you don't have to like it....but if you are content then I would guess you can't "hate" it. right? I really don't know about the evangelists who happen to be uber rich who get up and preach that God won't make you do something you don't want to do. Where in Scripture do you find that?
I'm in Jeremiah and Ezekiel. Jeremiah did not WANT to do what he was told to do. In fact he says this upwards of 8 different times in the book. He had a very hard job and he did not enjoy it.
Now I think to myself: Dave, you decided you weren't going to settle. You knew what you wanted in a wife and you prayed and God gave you the perfect girl. So, just believe that God want you to be happy and cares for you and pray for what you want. Have faith.
So, at what point can I pray that God will give me the job I ask for, and actually believe I'm going to get it? I did, and I got Kaylynn. But what clicked with me this last year is all the people I see settling for a mate, and I realized I didn't have to do that -- that God would provide.
My gf tells me that I'm too depressing sometimes. I felt like Toby Ziegler. = / The thing is, I see that I can be. I am cynical.
Back on topic. For me to come to the same realization about a job would mean I must conclude that the people I have known throughout my life that have had jobs they didn't like, lacked the faith to get the job they really wanted. But from Jeremiah we just concluded that God doesn't always give people what they want.
Are we now talking will/plan? If I hadn't prayed about it as fervently and supposing the plan was different could I have ended up with someone else because I lacked the faith to get the perfect person? Would I still have been happy? As happy?
So, now I'm saying Jeremiah lacked the faith. But he wasn't really even in a similar situation. He was called and said he couldn't, God said he could, and so he did. Then he would complain about it throughout the years.
Btw, if you have answers, call me or e-mail me. Or post snide remarks.
I miss my gf. Maybe she'll call soon.
I'm meeting with a pastor Saturday monring. We are hoping Kaylynn can get out of the house so she can be there too. . .but we aren't sure she'll be able to get out. Then we are planning on talking to her parents Sunday afternoon. Pray for us, please.
I'm pretty much assuming now that I'm supposed to go to Covance. I wasn't sure for a while, but the more I think about it the more I think I'm supposed to go. So, I'm going to try to get a little bit ahead on some stuff so I don't have to worry too much while I'm gone. I'm going to miss 5 days of Greek. Everything else I can pretty much handle without a problem. Pray that I get in please.
gtg, bye. 9:10
We needed to run down the road a ways to get my car because I parked at the other end of campus and we were going to take my roommates car. But no, we couldn't do that because we can't be in the same car together. So we had to walk. Walking doesn't bother me, but she was going to be late for work, and we needed to get going. . .and then we have a stupid rule.
And now, she can't come do her homework here, or just chat. I'm sick of this place. She just showed up. She doesn't want to go home. . . .It doesn't make sense either. I can go workout, play ball, run on the treadmill. I just can't sit in the hall with my gf? Apparently not.
This is going too make this whole semester entirely too long. I work every night, and she was planning on coming to visit. Now, she probably won't be playing VB with us either b/c she won't have anywhere to go for that 1-1.5 hrs before we start.
Bleh! That ruined my night. I was all excited because we have VB tonight. I'm hungry now too.
Why did I come to school again? Wasn't it for a wife? Really? I suppose a degree was part of it. But now that I realize the value this degree actually has, it is kinda discouraging.
VB should be fun tonight. We have 6-8 coming. I hope. It isn't a matter of people wanting to, just a matter of them remembering.
I get bonus points if I study Greek 6 hours a week. Now with all the homework I have I thought that would be easy . . . I'm still two hours short. And I need them in tonight. I do have a quiz to study for. but if I start doing next week's homework then I will have less time spent next week. I'll be fine....eventually its going to be harder homework and it will take 6 hours....I hope?
So she brought me some spaghetti, and pudding, and bread, and carrots, and cookies. It was a good dinner. Yes, she is spoiling me....but she's allowed to.
I need $10k. That would make half the worries I have go away. . . . . .well, maybe more than that. The other half is annoying, but they aren't monetary which means I they have other solutions. Most of my problems are monetary, however. Car, ring, wedding, honeymoon, loans, rent, food, books. . . .etc.
After thinking about it....I'm not going to play the lottery. Yes, I know, you are all disappointed, but I figure I just won't do it. Even though, I could win 283 mil by just buying 1 ticket. No, I'm not going to do it.
Sooooooooo, how do I get some money? I put some apps in. Now I wait. . .I wanted to type "I just don't want to worry anymore." but then I thought...I shouldn't be worrying anyway. Yes, I should trust God to provide for my needs. But then I wonder at what point are these things needs? Yes, I want to get her a nice ring, and have a nice wedding. . .but is that a need? Because then I worry. So, is the money for the ring I want a need? I am supposed to wait on God's timing. If I don't get the money, then does that mean we postpone the wedding? I doubt we would do that. If we have no money, we just cut back on what we want.....but it isn't as if we want something extravagant. Just something nice. So....maybe I'm just supposed to go to Covance and maybe that will all work out and then I won't be wondering anymore. right? Sure.
My brother hasn't called me in forever. He said he was going to. . . .
My problem: All his life have I looked away... to the future, to the horizon. Never my mind on where I was. Hmm? What I was doing. Hmph.
This is true. I dont ever remember being happy where i was.....i was always waiting to be happy....i hated school but I did it because I needed to prepare. Same with college. Now Grad school. I'm sick of preparing.....I want to live. but in all that time, I never really enjoyed life. =/
I mean I had fun. I did enjoy stuff...but I spent my days daydreaming about the future. I spent college just wanting to be done. The thing is, that I do enjoy life more now. . .but I hate restrictions. When I start enjoying life and then get told "no, there is a rule" I just want to move past the rules. Days off were good not because I could do something, but because I didn't have to do something I didn't want to do.
There were things I enjoyed. SWCCG. I loved spending time with my cousins and brother. I loved the 4th and Christmas. But the more I enjoyed them, the more I disliked everything else. I just wanted to do those things again. Then it was WoW. I enjoyed WoW for a while.
Now I'm in love. Its more than playing cards or video games. I'm tired of looking forward all the time. I love spending time with Kaylynn. We have fun. We enjoy each other's company. I don't feel I need to move on from the moment, until its over, and I think that if we were not "here" it wouldn't have to be over. I feel like I live in "highs" and "lows" and am not steady. I don't remember thinking my parents were like this. It just seemed that they were used to life. . .is that what happens? You just get used to life? I don't want to get used to dealing with all this. I don't want to deal with it. I look at "adults" and I see things I don't want. And I wonder why they would want it, then I think that of course they don't, and I wonder how they can be happy. Then b/c I can't figure that out I assume they aren't. And then I tell myself I don't want to end up like that. Maybe they are happy though?
Some people have jobs they love. They wouldn't be doing anything else. Then there are other people; they can't stand their jobs. Then you hear messages: "If you are doing what you should you will be happy." Well, of course you will be happy. . .but does that mean that you are going to have to take a job you hate? I know lots and lots of people who have had jobs they hated doing. I don't want to dread going to work. It scares me that I'm going to for the rest of my life. I know that's worry too. . . . . . . . .I'm trying, but its hard.
Joseph was in prison. Did he like it, or was he just content? Jesus was scorned and mocked. Did he like it, or was he content? So, apparently you don't have to like it....but if you are content then I would guess you can't "hate" it. right? I really don't know about the evangelists who happen to be uber rich who get up and preach that God won't make you do something you don't want to do. Where in Scripture do you find that?
I'm in Jeremiah and Ezekiel. Jeremiah did not WANT to do what he was told to do. In fact he says this upwards of 8 different times in the book. He had a very hard job and he did not enjoy it.
Now I think to myself: Dave, you decided you weren't going to settle. You knew what you wanted in a wife and you prayed and God gave you the perfect girl. So, just believe that God want you to be happy and cares for you and pray for what you want. Have faith.
So, at what point can I pray that God will give me the job I ask for, and actually believe I'm going to get it? I did, and I got Kaylynn. But what clicked with me this last year is all the people I see settling for a mate, and I realized I didn't have to do that -- that God would provide.
My gf tells me that I'm too depressing sometimes. I felt like Toby Ziegler. = / The thing is, I see that I can be. I am cynical.
Back on topic. For me to come to the same realization about a job would mean I must conclude that the people I have known throughout my life that have had jobs they didn't like, lacked the faith to get the job they really wanted. But from Jeremiah we just concluded that God doesn't always give people what they want.
Are we now talking will/plan? If I hadn't prayed about it as fervently and supposing the plan was different could I have ended up with someone else because I lacked the faith to get the perfect person? Would I still have been happy? As happy?
So, now I'm saying Jeremiah lacked the faith. But he wasn't really even in a similar situation. He was called and said he couldn't, God said he could, and so he did. Then he would complain about it throughout the years.
Btw, if you have answers, call me or e-mail me. Or post snide remarks.
I miss my gf. Maybe she'll call soon.
I'm meeting with a pastor Saturday monring. We are hoping Kaylynn can get out of the house so she can be there too. . .but we aren't sure she'll be able to get out. Then we are planning on talking to her parents Sunday afternoon. Pray for us, please.
I'm pretty much assuming now that I'm supposed to go to Covance. I wasn't sure for a while, but the more I think about it the more I think I'm supposed to go. So, I'm going to try to get a little bit ahead on some stuff so I don't have to worry too much while I'm gone. I'm going to miss 5 days of Greek. Everything else I can pretty much handle without a problem. Pray that I get in please.
gtg, bye. 9:10
Monday, September 3, 2007
/happy sigh
I'm in love.
Holiday schedule at school today. Means classes are only 45 minutes and only 5 mintues between them, and also no chapel. shorter day all-around. Most the offices get to close early as well. But since athletics isn't one of them, my boss asked if I would come in early so they could leave. Sure, why not.....nothing wrong with working 1-10. Oh, and btw, the internet was down till 8:30.
Now, I know what you're thinking. 9 hours dave, and no internet. You are going to go out of your mind realizing that there is probably a big party going on at your house and you are missing it. But no, that's not what happened.
I finished my last class and had lunch with my girl. Then we walked over to the gym and sat and talked for 7.5 hours. Of course, I checked the gym every now and then, and she ran out to get McDs around dinner time. But we mostly talked. Talked about stupid stuff. Talked about important stuff. It was a good day. She got a little (tiny) bit of homework done, and I got nothing accomplished. It was a good day.
Yes, I know. I don't need to be eating McDs.....but mmMmmMm it was good.
Class went ok today. got a 15 on my quiz. Out of 15. So, yay me!
I'm ready to be married. Really I am. Ok, enough on that.
I'm going to try to app for jobs tomorrow. But over all I'm in a good mood. I think I stopped worrying as much. Not sure, b/c sometimes it just makes me feel like I'm not concerned enough. I am concerned....I just am not sure where the line is between being over comfortable and being worried. Ok, I'm out. 9:51
Holiday schedule at school today. Means classes are only 45 minutes and only 5 mintues between them, and also no chapel. shorter day all-around. Most the offices get to close early as well. But since athletics isn't one of them, my boss asked if I would come in early so they could leave. Sure, why not.....nothing wrong with working 1-10. Oh, and btw, the internet was down till 8:30.
Now, I know what you're thinking. 9 hours dave, and no internet. You are going to go out of your mind realizing that there is probably a big party going on at your house and you are missing it. But no, that's not what happened.
I finished my last class and had lunch with my girl. Then we walked over to the gym and sat and talked for 7.5 hours. Of course, I checked the gym every now and then, and she ran out to get McDs around dinner time. But we mostly talked. Talked about stupid stuff. Talked about important stuff. It was a good day. She got a little (tiny) bit of homework done, and I got nothing accomplished. It was a good day.
Yes, I know. I don't need to be eating McDs.....but mmMmmMm it was good.
Class went ok today. got a 15 on my quiz. Out of 15. So, yay me!
I'm ready to be married. Really I am. Ok, enough on that.
I'm going to try to app for jobs tomorrow. But over all I'm in a good mood. I think I stopped worrying as much. Not sure, b/c sometimes it just makes me feel like I'm not concerned enough. I am concerned....I just am not sure where the line is between being over comfortable and being worried. Ok, I'm out. 9:51
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
me again
Yeah, ok, its me again. What's happening?
So, I got my car back today, and he reminded me that the front drivers side tire needed the wheel bearing replaced. He said it would be fine as long as I wasn't going down the highway or anything. So, yeah, eventually I'm going to need to get that fixed before I kill anybody. I went to chapel with my gf today. Spent some time with her between classes and stuff. We try to do that as often as possible.
I went grocery shopping today. 72 cans of tuna and 5 boxes of wheat crackers and some bran cereal. I'm thinking the cereal could turn out as a good idea. I'll have to see. More fiber than the crackers, I just have to see how viable it is to eat with the tuna.
The revival meeting last night was ok. I don't think I'm going tonight. Not sure what I'll do at home, but I will probably eat dinner. Maybe I should just go to the meeting. . . . . . . .can't decide.
I should do some kinda cardio. . .I hate cardio though. Oh well.
I just remembered that I was offered free yogart on one of the days my car was dead and I left it here. . .that was like last Friday I think. I wonder if its still in there. . .doubt it.
Started the laundry again. I'm feeling kinda tired. I got plenty of sleep last night though. One thing about drinking lots of water, is that your water retention goes down. That means that you can't drink anything for like 2 hours before bed or you will be up in the night....trust me. I haven't drank as much as I should have today.
Part of me misses WoW. I'm not sure exactly what it is I miss even. Kinda that feeling where there isn't too much to do, and not much time to do what needs to be done and you sit down and _____ nothing. There isn't a game to play. You already won it, or cancelled the subscription. I could arena or WSG though. . .ah, yes, but in the end didn't I end up playing a bit more than I needed? probably. It isn't that I need WoW. Its just become habit, and now its like empty space. And filling it with homework isn't likely to work.
I need to learn to not worry, and trust God for everything. That's what I learned at the thing last night. Yeah, I knew it already, but I've been worrying anyway. /sigh
The Darkeve is back up. My first online game. I remember playing it when everyone else was starting WoW. I was as close to a hero class as the game allowed. Speaking of which....I haven't called my friend back home since I've been out here. /shrug, I should do that sometime. Maybe I can start playing poker with him again.
My roommate called the internet place and got us another deal for the next 3 months. So, no huge price increase and we get to keep internet. That's cool, b/c it woulda been hard to go without it. I woulda had to play lots of FF. I'm already thinking of starting up FF9. But, my gf wants me to spend my time on productive things. . . . . .yeah. . .oh well. Food sounds good right now. I haven't eaten much today yet. 30 minutes till I'm outta here. Still don't know if I'm coming back. I have a feeling I will just because I won't have anything else to do, so why not go to the meeting? pfft.
Oh well. Did some reading on some pointless and not pointless stuff. Now I'm going to go change the laundry so I can go in a few minutes. Its aweful hot outside....and it feels good in here....another reason to go to revival meetings. Or I could just sit in my roommates air conditioned room on his laptop. . .hmmm. 5:44
So, I got my car back today, and he reminded me that the front drivers side tire needed the wheel bearing replaced. He said it would be fine as long as I wasn't going down the highway or anything. So, yeah, eventually I'm going to need to get that fixed before I kill anybody. I went to chapel with my gf today. Spent some time with her between classes and stuff. We try to do that as often as possible.
I went grocery shopping today. 72 cans of tuna and 5 boxes of wheat crackers and some bran cereal. I'm thinking the cereal could turn out as a good idea. I'll have to see. More fiber than the crackers, I just have to see how viable it is to eat with the tuna.
The revival meeting last night was ok. I don't think I'm going tonight. Not sure what I'll do at home, but I will probably eat dinner. Maybe I should just go to the meeting. . . . . . . .can't decide.
I should do some kinda cardio. . .I hate cardio though. Oh well.
I just remembered that I was offered free yogart on one of the days my car was dead and I left it here. . .that was like last Friday I think. I wonder if its still in there. . .doubt it.
Started the laundry again. I'm feeling kinda tired. I got plenty of sleep last night though. One thing about drinking lots of water, is that your water retention goes down. That means that you can't drink anything for like 2 hours before bed or you will be up in the night....trust me. I haven't drank as much as I should have today.
Part of me misses WoW. I'm not sure exactly what it is I miss even. Kinda that feeling where there isn't too much to do, and not much time to do what needs to be done and you sit down and _____ nothing. There isn't a game to play. You already won it, or cancelled the subscription. I could arena or WSG though. . .ah, yes, but in the end didn't I end up playing a bit more than I needed? probably. It isn't that I need WoW. Its just become habit, and now its like empty space. And filling it with homework isn't likely to work.
I need to learn to not worry, and trust God for everything. That's what I learned at the thing last night. Yeah, I knew it already, but I've been worrying anyway. /sigh
The Darkeve is back up. My first online game. I remember playing it when everyone else was starting WoW. I was as close to a hero class as the game allowed. Speaking of which....I haven't called my friend back home since I've been out here. /shrug, I should do that sometime. Maybe I can start playing poker with him again.
My roommate called the internet place and got us another deal for the next 3 months. So, no huge price increase and we get to keep internet. That's cool, b/c it woulda been hard to go without it. I woulda had to play lots of FF. I'm already thinking of starting up FF9. But, my gf wants me to spend my time on productive things. . . . . .yeah. . .oh well. Food sounds good right now. I haven't eaten much today yet. 30 minutes till I'm outta here. Still don't know if I'm coming back. I have a feeling I will just because I won't have anything else to do, so why not go to the meeting? pfft.
Oh well. Did some reading on some pointless and not pointless stuff. Now I'm going to go change the laundry so I can go in a few minutes. Its aweful hot outside....and it feels good in here....another reason to go to revival meetings. Or I could just sit in my roommates air conditioned room on his laptop. . .hmmm. 5:44
Monday, August 27, 2007
augh!
My car. . .costing me another ~$240 to fix. Apparently its the starter and the labor finding that out was a lot. . .I guess? I don't know how much a starter costs to fix, and I do know I need my car. . .so, hopefully I will have a working car tomorrow. That's about $370 into my car since coming out here. I have $75 to pay for license renewal, another $60 for my books I just bought. I might have to buy another book . . . that will cost something too, obviously. Looks like somewhere around $25.
/sigh The football players are here....I should sit out in the entrance way and make sure they take their shoes off before coming inside. I was told the VB team would leave their laundry out for me. . .its not here yet. I suppose its possible that some of the team is still in the locker room.
I am sick of this place. Yes, I've only been here a month, and yes, classes don't start for another two days. But bleh. Such is life I guess. It shouldn't be this way....its probably my fault, for feeling like this. I guess.
My boss just asked if I would mind helping this weekend. I don't really, except I have classes on Wed/Fri for a 3 hours in the middle of the day, then I have to work at the gym in the evening. Thursday I'm going to Covance. . .and I'm praying I am able to get in. Otherwise I am in big trouble. Or is that panic sounding? God will provide; how is the tricky thing from my perspective. /sigh
I feel like eating. I'm back on my tuna diet. I'm going to need to buy some wheat crackers soon b/c I'm out and I need some fiber to eat with my tuna. I don't feel like eating beans at all right now. And they are more expensive.
My roommate and I were talking. Seems like if we just pay the rent at the old price they will just take it. We haven't heard anything and this is getting pathetic. So, we are hoping to get a bill with it for our old rent and then just keep it all year. If that's the case, I figured my budget and it seems like I will have a bit more cash then I originally expected. However, they changed the payment method from 1 check a month to 2. And then only gave us one for August. Why they did it this way, idk. But now I have to figure out how to start. If I use my one check for August rent then I can't use it for food. I could use it for food, and then use my first check in Sept for August rent and the next one for Sept rent. Then Oct starts with me using the check for food and then rent. Idk. . .not that big a deal I guess.
I'm sick of athletics.
Ok, I'm going to try to get some homework done. I ask that you all pray for me. My finances are tight, and it really bothers me. I'm trying to be patient and content though. Thanks; I'll blog later. . .we got revival meetings this week. Yay. . .? I'm going tonight but I think I'll skip Tue/Thur. I'm going tonight b/c my gf is going. ;) 5:23
/sigh The football players are here....I should sit out in the entrance way and make sure they take their shoes off before coming inside. I was told the VB team would leave their laundry out for me. . .its not here yet. I suppose its possible that some of the team is still in the locker room.
I am sick of this place. Yes, I've only been here a month, and yes, classes don't start for another two days. But bleh. Such is life I guess. It shouldn't be this way....its probably my fault, for feeling like this. I guess.
My boss just asked if I would mind helping this weekend. I don't really, except I have classes on Wed/Fri for a 3 hours in the middle of the day, then I have to work at the gym in the evening. Thursday I'm going to Covance. . .and I'm praying I am able to get in. Otherwise I am in big trouble. Or is that panic sounding? God will provide; how is the tricky thing from my perspective. /sigh
I feel like eating. I'm back on my tuna diet. I'm going to need to buy some wheat crackers soon b/c I'm out and I need some fiber to eat with my tuna. I don't feel like eating beans at all right now. And they are more expensive.
My roommate and I were talking. Seems like if we just pay the rent at the old price they will just take it. We haven't heard anything and this is getting pathetic. So, we are hoping to get a bill with it for our old rent and then just keep it all year. If that's the case, I figured my budget and it seems like I will have a bit more cash then I originally expected. However, they changed the payment method from 1 check a month to 2. And then only gave us one for August. Why they did it this way, idk. But now I have to figure out how to start. If I use my one check for August rent then I can't use it for food. I could use it for food, and then use my first check in Sept for August rent and the next one for Sept rent. Then Oct starts with me using the check for food and then rent. Idk. . .not that big a deal I guess.
I'm sick of athletics.
Ok, I'm going to try to get some homework done. I ask that you all pray for me. My finances are tight, and it really bothers me. I'm trying to be patient and content though. Thanks; I'll blog later. . .we got revival meetings this week. Yay. . .? I'm going tonight but I think I'll skip Tue/Thur. I'm going tonight b/c my gf is going. ;) 5:23
Saturday, August 25, 2007
stuff
So, my car broke down. Then after sitting a day it started again. Just in time for Wed. church. Then it broke down again. When I say "broke down" I just mean it won't start. It isn't really dead, per se. It has power. It just won't crank/turn over/etc. I'm pretty sure its the "Neutral Safety Switch." BUT I don't know anything about cars and I can't find a manual/diagram anywhere online to help me work on it. So I took it to a shop today (when I say "took it" I mean, myself and my two roommates and two of my roommates brothers pushed it down the road and around the corner.) and the guy said that he can't get to it till Monday. AUGAHU!!! Oh well. So it appears I need to be even more patient.
I have gained weight. Like ~10lbs. Not good. The dining hall was free for me all week. And I ate there for lunch everyday, and for supper a couple times. Its good food. Just fattening. When I have a chance to eat a lot I usually take it. So, in the end, its probably a good thing I don't eat there all the time. I need to lose it fast. Probably won't happen. I have a Covance study I'm going to screen for on Thursday. I wonder if I'm too much over weight for it now. . .that would be an interesting turn of events.
I could really use the cash from this study. I'm praying that if I'm not supposed to go, I don't get it. I'm going to wait to app for jobs till I find out if I make it or not. If I make it, I only really need to work part time this semester rather than another full time job. That would be nice. Mostly because I would like to get some sleep. =D
I still can't make a budget because I don't know how much they are going to charge for rent. I e-mailed the head of the business dept and asked and he said he would look into it and get back to me. I haven't heard anything yet. We have been here a whole month. Seems like they woulda figured it out before now. Right? If it rent skyrockets we are thinking of finding a different place. We already found one place and I e-mailed that guy. Haven't heard from him yet either though.
My car is broke so tomorrow I have to get a ride to church. That isn't a big deal. But tomorrow evening we (Kaylynn and myself) were going to go out with Anthony and Crystal. That won't work now, b/c I don't have a car. The church is done having sandwich Sundays, so no afternoon service. It was kinda nice to have it all at once. I'm sure I'll get used to having it normal again. I did before.
I guess someone decided that I should be wearing MBBC athletic shirts when I supervise so people know I'm in charge. So much for my shorts/jeans and t-shirts. Now I got to wear a polo. I suppose I can still wear jeans.
I haven't talked to my brother/cousins in a while. I'm going to avoid buying as many books as I possibly can. My roommate DL'd one of the books for a class we are taking. I think we are going to try to borrow the other from the library, and then I will only have to buy one class worth of books. Now that I think about it, I should do that right now.
Ok, so I ordered my Hebrew books. half.com got me the books for about a $30 savings. Not bad, I guess.
I guess the wedding today went well. That's all I really heard so far.
I get kinda bored with no game to play. I read online forums and stuff. But I don't really feel like watching movies. I need to get some work done on my papers and stuff, but that doesn't sound fun either.
I need to get my check cashed. (So at this point some alumni football player came in because he hurt his knee. So I had to get him crutches, and bandages. Young guy. His dad was here helping him. That is one reason why I don't really care to play organized sports so much. I've never been hurt badly. That's just God's protection though, b/c I know it could happen outside of organized sports. Now back to the scheduled programming.) So, I need to run to the bank on Monday and get my checks deposited/cashed and then get some groceries. I want to make a budget but I can't yet. Which reminds me, I need to stop in the business office Monday too. Got to go lock a door, brb.
So, I've done some more reading. Mostly about lifting/weight/etc. I always like reading that stuff.
Well, I better go get some work done....I'll probably blog more next week since school will be starting up. 4:27
I have gained weight. Like ~10lbs. Not good. The dining hall was free for me all week. And I ate there for lunch everyday, and for supper a couple times. Its good food. Just fattening. When I have a chance to eat a lot I usually take it. So, in the end, its probably a good thing I don't eat there all the time. I need to lose it fast. Probably won't happen. I have a Covance study I'm going to screen for on Thursday. I wonder if I'm too much over weight for it now. . .that would be an interesting turn of events.
I could really use the cash from this study. I'm praying that if I'm not supposed to go, I don't get it. I'm going to wait to app for jobs till I find out if I make it or not. If I make it, I only really need to work part time this semester rather than another full time job. That would be nice. Mostly because I would like to get some sleep. =D
I still can't make a budget because I don't know how much they are going to charge for rent. I e-mailed the head of the business dept and asked and he said he would look into it and get back to me. I haven't heard anything yet. We have been here a whole month. Seems like they woulda figured it out before now. Right? If it rent skyrockets we are thinking of finding a different place. We already found one place and I e-mailed that guy. Haven't heard from him yet either though.
My car is broke so tomorrow I have to get a ride to church. That isn't a big deal. But tomorrow evening we (Kaylynn and myself) were going to go out with Anthony and Crystal. That won't work now, b/c I don't have a car. The church is done having sandwich Sundays, so no afternoon service. It was kinda nice to have it all at once. I'm sure I'll get used to having it normal again. I did before.
I guess someone decided that I should be wearing MBBC athletic shirts when I supervise so people know I'm in charge. So much for my shorts/jeans and t-shirts. Now I got to wear a polo. I suppose I can still wear jeans.
I haven't talked to my brother/cousins in a while. I'm going to avoid buying as many books as I possibly can. My roommate DL'd one of the books for a class we are taking. I think we are going to try to borrow the other from the library, and then I will only have to buy one class worth of books. Now that I think about it, I should do that right now.
Ok, so I ordered my Hebrew books. half.com got me the books for about a $30 savings. Not bad, I guess.
I guess the wedding today went well. That's all I really heard so far.
I get kinda bored with no game to play. I read online forums and stuff. But I don't really feel like watching movies. I need to get some work done on my papers and stuff, but that doesn't sound fun either.
I need to get my check cashed. (So at this point some alumni football player came in because he hurt his knee. So I had to get him crutches, and bandages. Young guy. His dad was here helping him. That is one reason why I don't really care to play organized sports so much. I've never been hurt badly. That's just God's protection though, b/c I know it could happen outside of organized sports. Now back to the scheduled programming.) So, I need to run to the bank on Monday and get my checks deposited/cashed and then get some groceries. I want to make a budget but I can't yet. Which reminds me, I need to stop in the business office Monday too. Got to go lock a door, brb.
So, I've done some more reading. Mostly about lifting/weight/etc. I always like reading that stuff.
Well, I better go get some work done....I'll probably blog more next week since school will be starting up. 4:27
Saturday, August 18, 2007
blogging PC
So, I'm back to my blogging PC. My boss asked if I would mind supervising today even though the gym isn't generally open this early. I needed the house since I took some days off and didn't start till the 6th, so, I took it. Should be easy. Who really wants to come work out on their first weekend on campus when they have been at football practice twice a day every day so far?
Lots has probably happened since the last time I blogged. Sorry. I was reading a journal the other day and I hated it when it skipped days/weeks/months. It was just because it showed a time when we don't know what happened. So, sometime I'll look back and regret not writing more this summer.
I am working for the Athletic Dpt. like I did last year. Same old boring stuff. Time filling stuff. We did paint the football/soccer fields yesterday. Still have about 4 hours left on the football field. I got burnt again. Farmers tan though. It isn't as bad as last year. Thankfully we have had lots of cloudy/rainy days. We have had some incredibly hot days too, but not as bad as last year.
The school decided that this year the athletic personal could eat free in the dining hall with the preseason athletes. w00t! So, I'm eating lunch/dinner in the dining hall all this week. I haven't really started my diet yet. . .I tried but eating at my GF's and going on trips didn't work too well. I'm not complaining though. I'll start my tuna diet when I get on schedule. . .I think.
We don't know how much rent will be yet. Part of me is hoping they skyrocket the price. We found another 3-4 bedroom house for rent for about what we are paying now, but we also know a 4th guy who would be interested which would drastically lower my rent. It is 5 miles from school, so I couldn't walk to work/class. But $100 a month in rent would be great to save. My roommate and I are taking the same classes and have the same work schedule, so we could ride together all the time......it sounds great. I'm going to call on Monday to try to setup an appointment to look at it. We'll see how things work out.
Still don't have a second job. I really really really don't want to work at McDs. Really. But if that's what the Lord gives me, I won't complain.
Oh, football is having some kinda workout in the gym today, in about an hour. So, after they are done, it should be dead. . . .I think, but I don't really care.
My days mostly revolve around work and trying to see my GF sometime after. We took her 17 year-old sister shopping with us on Thursday. Yesterday, we went to Culvers with a couple of her friends . I was exhausted. Still am a little bit today, but I got to sleep in for the first time this week.
I'm working with Aaron Love. Its interesting. Sometimes he seems so picky and other times it doesn't even seem like he cares if the job is done right. Must just be my/his perception of the job.
I brought my girl home last weekend. My family liked her, and she loved them, so all is well. Jenn gave her blessing, and Mike picked on her about eating grapes. Katie wanted to sit by her more than me, which was expected. We had fun. We saw two SW, which was important. I saw a couple of my cousins which was as fun as expected. I did awful on the trampoline game this time though.....must be losing my ninja status. = /
It drives me crazy that her parents treat her like a little kid. They call while shes driving and need to know exactly what road she's on and where on the road. . . .bleh. Its all the little things that say: "We don't trust you because you can't take care of yourself." We've been talking about sitting down and talking to her parents. That could go unexpectedly well, or as bad as we anticipate it going. We are still praying about it.
We are also praying about whether she should drop out this semester or next. Or move out now, or later. . .atm, I think I would rather she move drop out now, but she wants to go one more semester. So, if that's what she wants and thinks she should do, I'm for it.
I'm not really looking forward to class, but I am looking forward to having a set schedule.
I'm having internet problems. I copied the post thus far so that if I do get DC I won't lose it.
Oh, we are cancelling our internet at the house. The price jumps from $20, to $60 when Sept comes around so, we won't be paying that. Which means no internet at the house again. rats. Oh well. My WoW account ended Wed, for the second time. I don't really miss it. I'm glad, b/c that last few days before it ended I was feeling like I would really miss it. Its the people/political things.
I have been thinking about train jumping. There are trains going by here all the time. I'm going to jump on some train sometime this year. Hopefully I'll be smart enough to get off before I end up in Nebraska or something. I'm also thinking I need to do something. . .but what Idk. (At this point lots of ideas occur to me)
So I just did some reading for a while on picking locks and I think that may be a hobby worth investing in. Besides, we should have someone in the family who can pick a lock easily.
I'm tired. . .I want to take a nap. The football team is still arriving in here. I should work on my paper some. I told my GF I would.
Oh, I should call home too, probably.
Church tomorrow. We were supposed to have a church picnic at the park, but it looks like it's going to rain. Oh well. Idc either way really. Or maybe I would rather it does rain . . . if it rains then we don't have to stay too long.
I'm wearing a sweatshirt today. First time all summer I think.
Calling home, bbl. Got the answering machine. Makes sense. Think dad had the day off, so they probably went somewhere.
Well, I just read for about an hour on creating master keys when one "change key" and its appropriate lock are accessible. I however, have two "change keys" with both accessible locks. The number of blank keys I would need would still be P(D-1), which could be somewhat expensive, but it sounds fun. If however, I could get blanks for under $.50 then I would be more inclined to attempt to work out this problem. Finely, if I could further determine how "change keys" affect the master key, it could be much simpler since I can possible get access (for a short time period) to a large amount of change keys. I will need a metal file since I won't be spending the $$$ of getting a key cutter. What I would do with the Master when I'm done I don't know yet. A few ideas come to mind though.
I should probably go work on my book/paper. I won't be back in here for about another week, but I'm sure I'll write more next time I'm here. peace. 3:13.
Lots has probably happened since the last time I blogged. Sorry. I was reading a journal the other day and I hated it when it skipped days/weeks/months. It was just because it showed a time when we don't know what happened. So, sometime I'll look back and regret not writing more this summer.
I am working for the Athletic Dpt. like I did last year. Same old boring stuff. Time filling stuff. We did paint the football/soccer fields yesterday. Still have about 4 hours left on the football field. I got burnt again. Farmers tan though. It isn't as bad as last year. Thankfully we have had lots of cloudy/rainy days. We have had some incredibly hot days too, but not as bad as last year.
The school decided that this year the athletic personal could eat free in the dining hall with the preseason athletes. w00t! So, I'm eating lunch/dinner in the dining hall all this week. I haven't really started my diet yet. . .I tried but eating at my GF's and going on trips didn't work too well. I'm not complaining though. I'll start my tuna diet when I get on schedule. . .I think.
We don't know how much rent will be yet. Part of me is hoping they skyrocket the price. We found another 3-4 bedroom house for rent for about what we are paying now, but we also know a 4th guy who would be interested which would drastically lower my rent. It is 5 miles from school, so I couldn't walk to work/class. But $100 a month in rent would be great to save. My roommate and I are taking the same classes and have the same work schedule, so we could ride together all the time......it sounds great. I'm going to call on Monday to try to setup an appointment to look at it. We'll see how things work out.
Still don't have a second job. I really really really don't want to work at McDs. Really. But if that's what the Lord gives me, I won't complain.
Oh, football is having some kinda workout in the gym today, in about an hour. So, after they are done, it should be dead. . . .I think, but I don't really care.
My days mostly revolve around work and trying to see my GF sometime after. We took her 17 year-old sister shopping with us on Thursday. Yesterday, we went to Culvers with a couple of her friends . I was exhausted. Still am a little bit today, but I got to sleep in for the first time this week.
I'm working with Aaron Love. Its interesting. Sometimes he seems so picky and other times it doesn't even seem like he cares if the job is done right. Must just be my/his perception of the job.
I brought my girl home last weekend. My family liked her, and she loved them, so all is well. Jenn gave her blessing, and Mike picked on her about eating grapes. Katie wanted to sit by her more than me, which was expected. We had fun. We saw two SW, which was important. I saw a couple of my cousins which was as fun as expected. I did awful on the trampoline game this time though.....must be losing my ninja status. = /
It drives me crazy that her parents treat her like a little kid. They call while shes driving and need to know exactly what road she's on and where on the road. . . .bleh. Its all the little things that say: "We don't trust you because you can't take care of yourself." We've been talking about sitting down and talking to her parents. That could go unexpectedly well, or as bad as we anticipate it going. We are still praying about it.
We are also praying about whether she should drop out this semester or next. Or move out now, or later. . .atm, I think I would rather she move drop out now, but she wants to go one more semester. So, if that's what she wants and thinks she should do, I'm for it.
I'm not really looking forward to class, but I am looking forward to having a set schedule.
I'm having internet problems. I copied the post thus far so that if I do get DC I won't lose it.
Oh, we are cancelling our internet at the house. The price jumps from $20, to $60 when Sept comes around so, we won't be paying that. Which means no internet at the house again. rats. Oh well. My WoW account ended Wed, for the second time. I don't really miss it. I'm glad, b/c that last few days before it ended I was feeling like I would really miss it. Its the people/political things.
I have been thinking about train jumping. There are trains going by here all the time. I'm going to jump on some train sometime this year. Hopefully I'll be smart enough to get off before I end up in Nebraska or something. I'm also thinking I need to do something. . .but what Idk. (At this point lots of ideas occur to me)
So I just did some reading for a while on picking locks and I think that may be a hobby worth investing in. Besides, we should have someone in the family who can pick a lock easily.
I'm tired. . .I want to take a nap. The football team is still arriving in here. I should work on my paper some. I told my GF I would.
Oh, I should call home too, probably.
Church tomorrow. We were supposed to have a church picnic at the park, but it looks like it's going to rain. Oh well. Idc either way really. Or maybe I would rather it does rain . . . if it rains then we don't have to stay too long.
I'm wearing a sweatshirt today. First time all summer I think.
Calling home, bbl. Got the answering machine. Makes sense. Think dad had the day off, so they probably went somewhere.
Well, I just read for about an hour on creating master keys when one "change key" and its appropriate lock are accessible. I however, have two "change keys" with both accessible locks. The number of blank keys I would need would still be P(D-1), which could be somewhat expensive, but it sounds fun. If however, I could get blanks for under $.50 then I would be more inclined to attempt to work out this problem. Finely, if I could further determine how "change keys" affect the master key, it could be much simpler since I can possible get access (for a short time period) to a large amount of change keys. I will need a metal file since I won't be spending the $$$ of getting a key cutter. What I would do with the Master when I'm done I don't know yet. A few ideas come to mind though.
I should probably go work on my book/paper. I won't be back in here for about another week, but I'm sure I'll write more next time I'm here. peace. 3:13.
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