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She is amazing.
So, e-mail progressed into IM which turned into phone conversations. We have talked every day this week for a few hours. We are not a couple, and she is not my gf. "What is this paradox?" you ask. I need to talk to her dad. So, yeah. . .technically.
In other news:
I am missing one BoE for my second twink, and I picked up several pieces of other twink gear for a mage if I ever decide to go that route. It also turns out that some of the stuff that we thought was going to be inacessible to twinks after the patch still is. This means I could really make any number of twinks. Something to consider, but I really haven't played much lately.
The summer is going slow.
I was invited to a BBQ, and "just a BBQ." They made sure to lmk that there would be no alcohol, etc. Just a BBQ with some friends. They are making sure they do it before I go back to school to. It appears I was a factor in the planning for this. /shrug. I will probably go.
Anyway, don't have too much more to say. Kinda frustrated with work again. I am comfortable and getting complacent. My dad says I can't make waves. . . . . . .I'm so good at making waves. And its not intentional, really. I just see what needs to be done, and comment. oops.
3 weddings this year....hmmm.
Alright, I'm gonna check the AH. ttyl.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Thursday, May 24, 2007
old stuff
So, since I don't post a lot I can see my posts getting random and long all summer.
I started my job at BK. They love me there. I thought this was a bridge I burned behind me too. The district manager didn't really want me back, but the store manager loves me. She was so giddy the first day I worked with her. She showed me all her record times and started bragging about her store. She has grown up, and I didn't think that was possible. I guess people can change, but I will still act like they can't, b/c over all it is best to respond to situations as the norm, and not the exception. I'm sick of people telling me things are ok, and then quoting the exception. But thats another story.
Anyway, I was asked to help her with the store. I can and can't. Today things were a tad more frustrating since I'm seeing all the little things that are wrong. And I'm also seeing what she needs to do to help herself and the store. So, I have to be careful what and how I say it. But we get along and I have been careful and she is more understanding than before so I think it will be ok, as long as I am patient.
Which leads me to the passing of time. This summer seems like its moving slow. But that is only because of all the things I need/want to do, and for it to work right I need to wait. I'm sick of waiting. I need to talk to the store manager about what she can do better. I need to talk to her about the little things in the store. I need to write another e-mail, but do I write that tonight or tomorrow?
There is no getting around analysis. I get a short/long e-mail I'm going to wonder why. I'm going to wonder why if it was 1 day or 7 days between them. There could be good/bad reasons either way. So really, the reason for waiting or not waiting becomes one of trying to guess what the most common analysis leads to. If I can figure that out then I can project the image of myself that I want projected and not the image, but WAIT. That is playing the game, but seriously don't people do that every day? I mean. . .manipulating people can be easy and profitable. What is the difference between that and say. . .oh, changing the conversation from poker to class when someone walks in the room? You are just projecting what you want to be seen for that individual. I'm convinced we all do this more than we would like to admit.
Back up a bit though. If I am dependent on the common answer, aren't I then assuming that said person in w/e situation this is, is too naive/dumb to take the honest/short answer even if it means the same thing? Wouldn't a smart person be able to handle the straight answer for what its worth rather than attempting to reason into it more than is there? Perhaps smarts is not the right word.....perhaps its a matter of trust? If I trust you, then I don't really need to worry about your motives b/c the reason you give me is the reason I accept.
Trust. How often do we not trust each other? Who do you trust? I am in a position now where one of my friends that I have told everything to for years I have to stop talking to. Mostly because he now has friends involved in my situtations. I can't tell him what I think/feel/want to do, b/c in the end I can't trust what he will or won't say to them. Which leads me back to manipulation. I don't recall anyone at any fast food place I worked that I didn't manipulate them, except this one friend. Now I am in a place where I feel I may. Part of it was that I never needed to, and part of it was that I never trusted anyone else, and part was I stopped myself b/c I didn't want to. But the fact that I haven't in the past is really the only thing stopping me atm. I can't talk to him like I trust him. . .b/c in this situation I don't/can't.
Anyway, that is work/life.
Time goes slowly. My days go fast with work, and its good that I'm busy, but in the end, I spend the day and the night waiting to do something in the future, and never my mind and where I am, what I am doing. Ok, not quite true, b/c I am mindful of what I'm doing and more so than anyone else in my store (maybe). Which is really cool, b/c the store manager reminds me of me now . . . call me arrogant if you must, but she knows her job and is not just a boss.
I waited and waited and waited for the staff for my lock, and then it was up for 150g.......CRAZY. Then the next day there were 3 for sale, and I got one for 40g. HAHAHAHAHAA. So now I'm only missing bracers. I can get the rest of my mats for 200g, and then I would need to run BFD and WC and VC and Stocks. Anyway, the short of it is, I'm almost ready for another twink and I'm only a 31. DOH!!
I can't wait for the weekend. My cousin nailed it on the head. Games games and more games. And FAMILY. Thats what wins. Family getting together and discussing theology cannot be beat....ever. Don't try. Save your liquor, and ur drugs, and your parties. You think you know fun, and we say HA at you.
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So, the question is ever cycling itself. And the inevitable answer is, just do what you would naturally do. Don't hurry yourself, don't wait. Just be yourself, b/c that is honest. So, that is what I try to do. But then I am as aware as anyone I suppose that being yourself is not easy when alls you are trying is to be yourself.
Crew started working with me tonight. It was good. I needed that. It was weird not being involved. But its like some invisible barrier was now removed and they can talk to me. Now if I can just help out.
We swam in the pool some tonight. It was fun. I am scarred though....literally. My sister likes to pretend shes lady deathstrike. My 18 yearold sister, not the 7 yearold. Then she acts like a bulldog and doesn't let go....When my boss asks me tomorrow what happened to my arms and neck I will look at her straight-faced and say "possums."
I need something to drink or slurp. A shake sounds really good, but I doubt I can get one. I will just go mix some icecream and wait for it to melt some or something. brb. 9:15
Ok, I just drank some water and ate some cheese. I'm still kinda dry, but I don't feel like ice cream atm.
Let's see.....what else is there? Idk, maybe that's it. Don't think this one is that long. If I come up with more it will probably have to be another post in a week or two. Alright, I'm out. g'night. 9:32.
I started my job at BK. They love me there. I thought this was a bridge I burned behind me too. The district manager didn't really want me back, but the store manager loves me. She was so giddy the first day I worked with her. She showed me all her record times and started bragging about her store. She has grown up, and I didn't think that was possible. I guess people can change, but I will still act like they can't, b/c over all it is best to respond to situations as the norm, and not the exception. I'm sick of people telling me things are ok, and then quoting the exception. But thats another story.
Anyway, I was asked to help her with the store. I can and can't. Today things were a tad more frustrating since I'm seeing all the little things that are wrong. And I'm also seeing what she needs to do to help herself and the store. So, I have to be careful what and how I say it. But we get along and I have been careful and she is more understanding than before so I think it will be ok, as long as I am patient.
Which leads me to the passing of time. This summer seems like its moving slow. But that is only because of all the things I need/want to do, and for it to work right I need to wait. I'm sick of waiting. I need to talk to the store manager about what she can do better. I need to talk to her about the little things in the store. I need to write another e-mail, but do I write that tonight or tomorrow?
There is no getting around analysis. I get a short/long e-mail I'm going to wonder why. I'm going to wonder why if it was 1 day or 7 days between them. There could be good/bad reasons either way. So really, the reason for waiting or not waiting becomes one of trying to guess what the most common analysis leads to. If I can figure that out then I can project the image of myself that I want projected and not the image, but WAIT. That is playing the game, but seriously don't people do that every day? I mean. . .manipulating people can be easy and profitable. What is the difference between that and say. . .oh, changing the conversation from poker to class when someone walks in the room? You are just projecting what you want to be seen for that individual. I'm convinced we all do this more than we would like to admit.
Back up a bit though. If I am dependent on the common answer, aren't I then assuming that said person in w/e situation this is, is too naive/dumb to take the honest/short answer even if it means the same thing? Wouldn't a smart person be able to handle the straight answer for what its worth rather than attempting to reason into it more than is there? Perhaps smarts is not the right word.....perhaps its a matter of trust? If I trust you, then I don't really need to worry about your motives b/c the reason you give me is the reason I accept.
Trust. How often do we not trust each other? Who do you trust? I am in a position now where one of my friends that I have told everything to for years I have to stop talking to. Mostly because he now has friends involved in my situtations. I can't tell him what I think/feel/want to do, b/c in the end I can't trust what he will or won't say to them. Which leads me back to manipulation. I don't recall anyone at any fast food place I worked that I didn't manipulate them, except this one friend. Now I am in a place where I feel I may. Part of it was that I never needed to, and part of it was that I never trusted anyone else, and part was I stopped myself b/c I didn't want to. But the fact that I haven't in the past is really the only thing stopping me atm. I can't talk to him like I trust him. . .b/c in this situation I don't/can't.
Anyway, that is work/life.
Time goes slowly. My days go fast with work, and its good that I'm busy, but in the end, I spend the day and the night waiting to do something in the future, and never my mind and where I am, what I am doing. Ok, not quite true, b/c I am mindful of what I'm doing and more so than anyone else in my store (maybe). Which is really cool, b/c the store manager reminds me of me now . . . call me arrogant if you must, but she knows her job and is not just a boss.
I waited and waited and waited for the staff for my lock, and then it was up for 150g.......CRAZY. Then the next day there were 3 for sale, and I got one for 40g. HAHAHAHAHAA. So now I'm only missing bracers. I can get the rest of my mats for 200g, and then I would need to run BFD and WC and VC and Stocks. Anyway, the short of it is, I'm almost ready for another twink and I'm only a 31. DOH!!
I can't wait for the weekend. My cousin nailed it on the head. Games games and more games. And FAMILY. Thats what wins. Family getting together and discussing theology cannot be beat....ever. Don't try. Save your liquor, and ur drugs, and your parties. You think you know fun, and we say HA at you.
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So, the question is ever cycling itself. And the inevitable answer is, just do what you would naturally do. Don't hurry yourself, don't wait. Just be yourself, b/c that is honest. So, that is what I try to do. But then I am as aware as anyone I suppose that being yourself is not easy when alls you are trying is to be yourself.
Crew started working with me tonight. It was good. I needed that. It was weird not being involved. But its like some invisible barrier was now removed and they can talk to me. Now if I can just help out.
We swam in the pool some tonight. It was fun. I am scarred though....literally. My sister likes to pretend shes lady deathstrike. My 18 yearold sister, not the 7 yearold. Then she acts like a bulldog and doesn't let go....When my boss asks me tomorrow what happened to my arms and neck I will look at her straight-faced and say "possums."
I need something to drink or slurp. A shake sounds really good, but I doubt I can get one. I will just go mix some icecream and wait for it to melt some or something. brb. 9:15
Ok, I just drank some water and ate some cheese. I'm still kinda dry, but I don't feel like ice cream atm.
Let's see.....what else is there? Idk, maybe that's it. Don't think this one is that long. If I come up with more it will probably have to be another post in a week or two. Alright, I'm out. g'night. 9:32.
Monday, May 14, 2007
/sigh
I'm tired. I'm home, and I think my body realizes it can relax. I am getting lots of sleep and still feeling tired.
Everyone else blogged . . . So I had to get on.
What to say. . .not really much going on. My brother and I might go signup to donate plasma tomorrow. Not sure it something we really sign up for either, but we might.
I'm going to try to talk to the store manager to see what we can work out for the summer. I need to get my dates in order so I know what I'm talking about when it comes down to it.
I am bored and sick of being bored. But this is life. Life is not non-stop fun. Nor is it a bed of roses. Being busy is good. What I need however is a hobby, or something. Something that I can enjoy doing in my spare time. It just so happens that right now I have a lot of spare time.
I haven't gotten a haircut yet. My hair is long.
My twink is almost completely awesome. Pretty soon it will come down to fishing.....just like my first twink. 2 hours every Sunday, hoping for a random drop.
Random. What is random? What is the rolling of the die? or the casting of the lot? Know where I'm going now? Everytime you play a board game with random chance (cards/dice) every random aspect to it is decided by God. (And not just board games.) This can be said concerning luck too. I have had people tell me that in the end whether or not you get caught for speeding is just a matter of luck. True enough, but luck (ie. circumstances placing the cop in ur path or not at that time) is also determined by God.
Now comes the application. We better not complain when we are stuck in our base for 6 turns in a row. We better now whine when we miss our large straight 5 times. We better control ourselves when we fail to get the flush on the river and have already gone all-in. Skill comes not just in dealing with the unpredictable results, but rather in also acting appropriately to the results God gives.
Well, I think I may call it a day. No need to drag this out, since most people probly haven't finished my other one yet.
I'm thinking I should read Shakespeare. That is something I haven't finished yet, and would be good for me.
It is hot here. We are talking 76 at 11pm. That's warm.
My cousin wants to up the family superman requirement. Sure he does. Just b/c I *might* hit the current goal by the 4th. Maybe. Oh well.
Ok, g'night.
Everyone else blogged . . . So I had to get on.
What to say. . .not really much going on. My brother and I might go signup to donate plasma tomorrow. Not sure it something we really sign up for either, but we might.
I'm going to try to talk to the store manager to see what we can work out for the summer. I need to get my dates in order so I know what I'm talking about when it comes down to it.
I am bored and sick of being bored. But this is life. Life is not non-stop fun. Nor is it a bed of roses. Being busy is good. What I need however is a hobby, or something. Something that I can enjoy doing in my spare time. It just so happens that right now I have a lot of spare time.
I haven't gotten a haircut yet. My hair is long.
My twink is almost completely awesome. Pretty soon it will come down to fishing.....just like my first twink. 2 hours every Sunday, hoping for a random drop.
Random. What is random? What is the rolling of the die? or the casting of the lot? Know where I'm going now? Everytime you play a board game with random chance (cards/dice) every random aspect to it is decided by God. (And not just board games.) This can be said concerning luck too. I have had people tell me that in the end whether or not you get caught for speeding is just a matter of luck. True enough, but luck (ie. circumstances placing the cop in ur path or not at that time) is also determined by God.
Now comes the application. We better not complain when we are stuck in our base for 6 turns in a row. We better now whine when we miss our large straight 5 times. We better control ourselves when we fail to get the flush on the river and have already gone all-in. Skill comes not just in dealing with the unpredictable results, but rather in also acting appropriately to the results God gives.
Well, I think I may call it a day. No need to drag this out, since most people probly haven't finished my other one yet.
I'm thinking I should read Shakespeare. That is something I haven't finished yet, and would be good for me.
It is hot here. We are talking 76 at 11pm. That's warm.
My cousin wants to up the family superman requirement. Sure he does. Just b/c I *might* hit the current goal by the 4th. Maybe. Oh well.
Ok, g'night.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
so much to say -- 2nd title = don't read, too long.
And yet I can't get it onto the blog. I tried to blog yesterday and it didn't work. I'm sitting here and have some ideas of what I want to say and no intro to it. However, if I keep typing and typing I'm sure it will all come out eventually.
So we got into the Bible issue like I said Sunday night. Well, Heather was going to email me, so she did. I sat down yesterday and wrote a 5.5 page response to her paragraph of questions. I asked and stressed several times that she read it several times and think about it. I got an email back today. "I read it once." Ok, I understand that. She wants to make sure she's getting it ok. Then, "but I don't like that you quoted people." Then a paragraph about how this should be what I think and not just me citing other people.
First, I sent maybe 1 page of quotes in my 5.5 page response. So mostly my words. There is a necessity to quoting. I kept reading.
"I'm not taking it lightly, but I'm just trying to make you think." Now I'm steamed. She's trying to make me think. uh huh. . . . . . . . . . . . .5.5 pages. So I start my response. First, there is no way she should have even written today. She should have read it and then read it again and then slept on it and read it again.
So, I am on my fourth paragraph, and she walks by. Then shes like "You get my email?" Then we start talking. I explained about sources. I explained that I was thinking (obviously). Then we talked some more. She says she will write when she has more questions. I don't mind that. She says she will call when she thinks the discussion needs to be in person. I told her I might not answer. I don't really want to discuss this on the phone. With her. So, yeah.
I got another grade back. It was a B+. Now . . . the thing with this grade is much like one of the B's I got last semester. Unfortunately it was all my fault, and there isn't much I can say for an excuse.
I DL'd and listened to 3 sermons by the head of the Bible dept, that he preached on the Bible issue at his church. Bleh. Propaganda (sp?). Anyway, I figured I'd better listen. Some good stuff. Some bad stuff, and some info. Just what I figured, though he did give me more ammo than I thought he would have.
I talked to my one roommate about our "personal theology" statements. The Prof had said these were to be our doctrinal statements for years to come. So that's how I did mine. What he meant was "sit down with a Bible and write down everything you in your limited time and experience can recall on this topic. It doesn't matter if its thorough as long as you try." That's why I got a B. I didn't sit down and try to come up with something new. I must be a noob, b/c something in me just said, "I am young and ignorant, and I will undoubtedly miss things. I better use references in making the statement that will last me the next 10 years." What a fool I was!
Ok, yeah, I've been QQing about that one for a while now.
I made 3 cups of rice, and threw in like 20 slices of cheese, and my roommate threw in a block of valveeta, and I threw in a bunch of his ham, and then we threw it in the oven. It came out a tad try. We did add milk, just not enough we figured. But otherwise it was mmmmm good.
I have a presentation in the morning. Bleh. But it shouldn't be too bad imo. Mostly b/c we are all nervous and few of the people in the class actually know what this is about, or understand what the prof wants. We all asked him over and over. So, if we all bomb it then we are all ok. This is b/c a straight grade is impossible, but rather everything gets graded according to the best. At least out here.
My brother thinks he can beat me in Street Fighter. He might, but it might be one of those rare occasions when I win over and over. That would be cool.
I haven't packed yet. I plan on doing that tomorrow after class. Then I plan on taking a nap for 3-5 hours so I can miss Chicago traffic. Then I plan on driving for the next 7.
It will be cool to be home. I have bills....lots of them. That bothers me. I think no matter what, I need to get a job next semester. I need to start thinking farther ahead then just paying for school. I need a motorcycle. I have debt. I need to buy a house. I need to buy . . . lots of stuff.
Remember, money answereth all things. Some verse in Ecc.
VB in 30 minutes. I am only aware of 4 people that were sure they were coming. We tried to get more but I don't think it worked. So, yeah, it will be not as fun, but still fun.
I have this desire to read some books this summer, but part of me says I will never do it no matter how much I want to right now. I don't like that part of me, but its probly right. There is so much I don't know. The people who do know, know what they know. I took this last year and studied the Bible issue. I know a LOT more than I did. Still a lot I don't know, and haven't read.
Btw, I came across this verse in my devo's last night. 1 Cor. 11:7. Man was made in the image of God, as contrasted to woman. Yes, there it is in black and white. So, even though I didn't want to point out that Gen. never states that woman was made in God's image, and even though that twists some things we are used to it may very well be the case. We can't any longer say "murder is wrong b/c man is in God's image." I'm not pronouncing it here as fact. It is an interesting verse that pertained to my current discussion. I will be looking into this further though, Lord willing. What ramifications does it have? Is there a sense in which humans are all in God's image and a special sense in which only man is? What do others say about it? Interesting stuff.
I got my first AGM today. Yay me!! Then I was down there again and asked for help. I had 6 70's from a guild I don't know come down. The one almost always comes down and helps me. The other 5 just came with. It was awesome.
I'm not writing to point fingers or impress guilt, but this is something that has always been a wonder to me. Mostly b/c I'm always on the guilty side myself. And that is, why do strangers find it easier to take time to help?
But how many times would I be asked for help and I wanted to lvl my staves to 300, or I wanted AD rep. I remember telling all the officers that we should drop what we are doing to help the guild. That is why we are there. Most of them didn't like that. Who would? That makes wow your job, sorta. But I viewed it then as the guildies were the customers and the officers were the employees. Anyway, I didn't always want to help people.
I'm sure part of it has to do with familiarity. I am familiar with you, therefore I ask for help, more often than I would from someone else. At the same time, when do I help? Who asks for help? I heard recently of someone who felt like he wasn't getting too much help, but rather was just being taken advantage of. I feel bad. There are certain people that I feel right now I would drop w/e to help them. There are others I would feel I would have to help them. I would once or twice b/c I owe'd them, not b/c I particularly liked them.
I think its the people who don't expect anything from life, or anyone else. I remember when it got to that point in the guild. People wanted help getting blues. I would get on and deliver my normal speech how everyone was 60 already and I had to run everything with a PUG to get any gear. I didn't want to help them. Then we had other people in the guild who would always be going out of their way to help.
I guess I'm not just a very kind person. I wouldn't have even considered this though without WoW. I mean I get along. I can be cordial. I can be friendly. I can also be mean and sarcastic. But I wouldn't have thought about it. I actually probably would have defined myself as somewhat kind I think. I don't mind helping people . . . or do I? Well, obviously I do. I just wrote a page on how I don't and why. Yeah, its true....I'm not kind. That stinks.
You know, when I was in my younger years (heh) I would have days where (in my ignorance) I would say "wow, yesterday I only sinned like a few times." Now, speaking of physical actions that was true. But I was not in an attitude of submission. I was not in a place of humbleness. I did not spend my time in meditation on proper things. It wasn't that I was bad, but that I wasn't good. And we all know, not good = bad.
Its so hard to maintain proper perspective. The more I study theology, and then read about studying theoloy (mostly on the KJB issue, but it flows into every aspect of life) the whole point becomes obvious. Theology can only be properly done with a correct attitude of God. (yeah, dave we know this already) But the thing is, this attitude must be constant submission. We cannot know God except He reveal Himself. So my reading the Bible *must* be in submission to the Spirit or I just wasted my time. (well, per se)
Repentance is not a every time you sin thing. Repentance is an attitude. Sin is not something that happens occasionally. Your mind starts to wander in church? Sin. 5 minutes later is happens again? sin. It isn't like its just one sin and you can confess it all after church, and therefore just let your mind wander.
It is extremely hard to remember this. = / I find however that when I forget I sin. /sigh. Going to VB. I might get back to this when I get back. idk. 8:48
So I played VB. I invited some people. If I had not invited some of them then by time Kaylynn showed up we would have all been gone. However she didn't play anyway, and the other guy I invited didn't give us a chance to talk, and spent an annoying amount of time giving her her computer which apparently he was working on for something. She ended up staying for a while but we only had 5 so we didn't get to talk. It was interesting to say the least. And annoying.
So now, I'm just bleh. I got another email from Heather in the time I was gone. I think she caught my tone in the last one. She was just letting me know she may not come to any conclusion ever on this, and e-mails would be more rare since she has to study this more. Fine with me. I'm not in the best mood. I'm tired, I have a project to work on and I'm back to this odd jumble of thinking.
On the other hand, I have gotten more arena chests lately then in a long time. Only 10 more. Sounds like a lot, but I grabbed the last 7 rather quickly. Its sad though that the bright spot I reference is the STV arena. Seriously. Part of me is already not wanting to work BK. I can do it. I will be good at it again. I will do my job, and people will hate/love me. But bleh.
I can't help but think of all the money I will be needing...yes I already talked about it. Grats to you if you have made it this far in this post. Comments on novel length and such are not original but you are welcome to make them anyway.
Turns out my cousin just started work. Perfect timing. Now I will never get to see him. /sigh I want/need to laugh. Really laugh. I need to stop thinking. I have been and my brain is tired of the constant argument thinking right now. I can sit down and right 5 pages in an afternoon and its not hard. Yay. I couldn't before, but right now I didn't jump on my last prof when he said he was a 4 pointer....like there is such a thing. I have participated in discussion, but I'm slowing down, and it bothers me. I need to stay on top for another two days. Well, one day. I'm not sure going home will be a break yet though.
Only if I put off getting a job. But I need to go asap, b/c I need to be polite to them, and I need the cash. Otherwise, I might get Monday. Monday will be good. The weekend is undoubtedly busy. That isn't bad. I want to have everyone over. I need that too. But I need some time to just stop. I think.
So. . .I like apologetics. Its cool. I like logic. I can do that. God blessed that way. Part of me wants to stop school after this. I want to start saving. I don't know . . . and I'm not thinking clearly right now, and anything I say is most likely huey at this point.
I said bye to everyone at church Wed. It was weird how many people I have come to know. A deacon I had rarely spoke to told me he was glad to see me all year and was looking forward to me coming back. I got the comment I was a fixture. Pretty true. I sat by myself in the front. Every service. I will miss some of that.
We talked about altar calls, invitations and hero stories today. All bad. Well, that's not what the prof said, but I say it, and you can quote me on it....no, better not. b/c I said it without context. If you want to quote me, just make sure you realize there was no context.
Don't stand in front of your people and undermine the Bible. Wait....that wasn't today. But I figure we all need to be reminded of that on occasion anyway. Can't hurt right?
I'm still thinking. I am only writing to stop my brain from running. It slows it down. Basically. Maybe Corey is on vent. We could play poker....yes, I should be doing a paper. I don't need to hear that now, but thanks anyway.
That is the funny thing. People always like to tell you what you know, like you don't know it. I mean, its my paper. /sigh.
I'm tired of people. That's a sad fact. People are . . . that's just me reverting back to my arrogant self. Fast food will only bring that fact out more.
I heard that the District Manager told the store manager that she couldn't hire me. She talked him into it. He's a moron. I was always better than him, and apparently he hasn't changed. I hear she has changed and gotten better. I hope its true. I really do. We got along at first, but in the end things weren't great. But if shes better than I see no problems arising in 2 months. Plus, it would be nice to get along with her.
I saw a building for rent, and the first year was free. For some reason my brain couldn't come up with a purpose for it. I'm slipping bad. I used to walk buy buildings and think "If I could only get that place rent free for just a bit I could start my business." Now I see this nice building, good location, and I think "wish I had seen that before." Like I'm past my prime. FIE!! (I can say that right? oh well, I'm saying it.)
Someone said something about Shakespear in class. I could probably benefit from reading him right now. It sounds good, but at the same time it sounds like listening to "Into the West." Do I really need that sad song playing right now? Yes, it is a sad song.
Well....I'm getting on vent. brb Nope, Corey isn't there. Thursday....he golfed today. Idk what he's doing now....probly playing CoD2. Meh.
WoW holds no appeal to me right now. People want me to lvl, and I want to, but I lost it. I lost the appear of gear a LONG time ago. The appeal that kept me going was running something. I have nothing to run. My twink is almost to the boring part. I stopped PvPing. Granted this has been a busy week, but its just not easy to log on. But, I have nothing I say "I want to do xxxxx" No, I have nothing fun to replace it with atm. VB was fun.
I played on a team 2v3. They won the first game. I killed them the next two. Then I got the 3 team. We won again. Obviously. I woulda tried 1v4 just for the fun of it. Can't say I woulda won, but I woulda put up a fight.
I guess the appeal needs to be PvP at a high lvl. But honestly I think I stink at it. I was never too good at it. I could heal. I was PvE, and I could go PvP when I had a warrior. But then it was PvE for me. Lyss with me and 3 more healers, and we own'd AV every day, 3 times a day for a week. That was the height of my PvP. I went shadow for a bit, and hit like...rank 9 I think. Most likely I get to 70 and ruin the rank of w/e team I join. I don't understand the theory. I know the spells, and the stuff, but the timing/etc all needs to be lrn'd. And I lrn better if someone tells me than by trying to figure it out. I have little imagination sadly. I'm not sure why....I doubt it was b/c of TV/video games. I just don't think outside the box too much. Maybe here and there. I need another IQ test........
I should read Ecc. It fits my mood. Life is meaningless. All things die. Nothing is new. Laugh/cry/eat/drink, b/c you will die. Obviously this is a bad mood, and boarders on sin b/c of the depressing attitude. (I give myself the benefit of the doubt with "boarders" I know)
I have tried something new in my devos. Reading the Bible in the morning AND at night. Imagine that. Twice a day. Wow me. Its better for me I think. Its not like its lots more material, but I think it helps keep perspective, and set the mood for the day and then the end of the day.
1 Cor 11 is sure an interesting passage. The hair/covering material can be very convincing different ways every time you read it. Thankfully its not my problem, ;P
We are at 5.8 pages MS word. Good luck with this one. I think I'm almost done.
Ok, well. My body has recovered a bit from the adrenaline and the physical activity. My mind has perked up a tad due to the Vault I drank just a bit ago. I'm somewhat more calm I guess would be the word. I'm just tired...of everything right now. I don't want to pack. I don't want to drive. I don't want to take 94, to 894, to 90, to 94, to 196, to 27, to 46....or however that goes.
Its beautiful outside. Nice and cool. Dark. The fresh air is coming in through the open window.
Professionalism doesn't exist. Someone puts a PP together and it has a grammar error. You mention it and they then confide in you that they put the whole thing together that afternoon but everyone submitted a different part and it hadn't been checked yet. GG. Maybe run through it at least once before you show it in church....maybe?
One year working BK, my theme of February was "Everyone is stupid." I told everyone I worked with that that was the theme. They all knew it. I said it probably everyday. Whether that was good or not, I'm not commenting on. I said it and for the most part it was true. The word everyone was the exaggeration, and the word stupid carried the normal connotation not the techincal meaning. But with those stipulations understood by me I could make that statement truthfully. (heh)
So, were this February I would close with "Everyone is stupid." But its not. So . . . . . . the principle still applies outside the month anyway. Don't be stupid. It is something anyone can avoid do they so desire, but the fact is most people dispute the fact and thus don't even attempt to find the solution b/c they won't admit the problem....first step is what? Admitting you have a problem. Yes, you can pretend your comment is witty in that I need to admit I have a problem with long posts. Go for it. I'll cya all sooner or later....sooner this week or later at a wedding. Btw, there IS a wedding in August. The date has not yet been decided. I will keep you posted as I find out....but who knows, maybe I won't get invited anyway. Ok, that was uncalled for synicism....but its after 12 and I'm cranky and just claimed everyone is stupid. Call me on it if you want. I'm in the mood to argue to win, and not b/c I'm right. Yeah, and I'm not sure synicism is a word either. But it sounds good.
Ok, I'm out now.
So we got into the Bible issue like I said Sunday night. Well, Heather was going to email me, so she did. I sat down yesterday and wrote a 5.5 page response to her paragraph of questions. I asked and stressed several times that she read it several times and think about it. I got an email back today. "I read it once." Ok, I understand that. She wants to make sure she's getting it ok. Then, "but I don't like that you quoted people." Then a paragraph about how this should be what I think and not just me citing other people.
First, I sent maybe 1 page of quotes in my 5.5 page response. So mostly my words. There is a necessity to quoting. I kept reading.
"I'm not taking it lightly, but I'm just trying to make you think." Now I'm steamed. She's trying to make me think. uh huh. . . . . . . . . . . . .5.5 pages. So I start my response. First, there is no way she should have even written today. She should have read it and then read it again and then slept on it and read it again.
So, I am on my fourth paragraph, and she walks by. Then shes like "You get my email?" Then we start talking. I explained about sources. I explained that I was thinking (obviously). Then we talked some more. She says she will write when she has more questions. I don't mind that. She says she will call when she thinks the discussion needs to be in person. I told her I might not answer. I don't really want to discuss this on the phone. With her. So, yeah.
I got another grade back. It was a B+. Now . . . the thing with this grade is much like one of the B's I got last semester. Unfortunately it was all my fault, and there isn't much I can say for an excuse.
I DL'd and listened to 3 sermons by the head of the Bible dept, that he preached on the Bible issue at his church. Bleh. Propaganda (sp?). Anyway, I figured I'd better listen. Some good stuff. Some bad stuff, and some info. Just what I figured, though he did give me more ammo than I thought he would have.
I talked to my one roommate about our "personal theology" statements. The Prof had said these were to be our doctrinal statements for years to come. So that's how I did mine. What he meant was "sit down with a Bible and write down everything you in your limited time and experience can recall on this topic. It doesn't matter if its thorough as long as you try." That's why I got a B. I didn't sit down and try to come up with something new. I must be a noob, b/c something in me just said, "I am young and ignorant, and I will undoubtedly miss things. I better use references in making the statement that will last me the next 10 years." What a fool I was!
Ok, yeah, I've been QQing about that one for a while now.
I made 3 cups of rice, and threw in like 20 slices of cheese, and my roommate threw in a block of valveeta, and I threw in a bunch of his ham, and then we threw it in the oven. It came out a tad try. We did add milk, just not enough we figured. But otherwise it was mmmmm good.
I have a presentation in the morning. Bleh. But it shouldn't be too bad imo. Mostly b/c we are all nervous and few of the people in the class actually know what this is about, or understand what the prof wants. We all asked him over and over. So, if we all bomb it then we are all ok. This is b/c a straight grade is impossible, but rather everything gets graded according to the best. At least out here.
My brother thinks he can beat me in Street Fighter. He might, but it might be one of those rare occasions when I win over and over. That would be cool.
I haven't packed yet. I plan on doing that tomorrow after class. Then I plan on taking a nap for 3-5 hours so I can miss Chicago traffic. Then I plan on driving for the next 7.
It will be cool to be home. I have bills....lots of them. That bothers me. I think no matter what, I need to get a job next semester. I need to start thinking farther ahead then just paying for school. I need a motorcycle. I have debt. I need to buy a house. I need to buy . . . lots of stuff.
Remember, money answereth all things. Some verse in Ecc.
VB in 30 minutes. I am only aware of 4 people that were sure they were coming. We tried to get more but I don't think it worked. So, yeah, it will be not as fun, but still fun.
I have this desire to read some books this summer, but part of me says I will never do it no matter how much I want to right now. I don't like that part of me, but its probly right. There is so much I don't know. The people who do know, know what they know. I took this last year and studied the Bible issue. I know a LOT more than I did. Still a lot I don't know, and haven't read.
Btw, I came across this verse in my devo's last night. 1 Cor. 11:7. Man was made in the image of God, as contrasted to woman. Yes, there it is in black and white. So, even though I didn't want to point out that Gen. never states that woman was made in God's image, and even though that twists some things we are used to it may very well be the case. We can't any longer say "murder is wrong b/c man is in God's image." I'm not pronouncing it here as fact. It is an interesting verse that pertained to my current discussion. I will be looking into this further though, Lord willing. What ramifications does it have? Is there a sense in which humans are all in God's image and a special sense in which only man is? What do others say about it? Interesting stuff.
I got my first AGM today. Yay me!! Then I was down there again and asked for help. I had 6 70's from a guild I don't know come down. The one almost always comes down and helps me. The other 5 just came with. It was awesome.
I'm not writing to point fingers or impress guilt, but this is something that has always been a wonder to me. Mostly b/c I'm always on the guilty side myself. And that is, why do strangers find it easier to take time to help?
But how many times would I be asked for help and I wanted to lvl my staves to 300, or I wanted AD rep. I remember telling all the officers that we should drop what we are doing to help the guild. That is why we are there. Most of them didn't like that. Who would? That makes wow your job, sorta. But I viewed it then as the guildies were the customers and the officers were the employees. Anyway, I didn't always want to help people.
I'm sure part of it has to do with familiarity. I am familiar with you, therefore I ask for help, more often than I would from someone else. At the same time, when do I help? Who asks for help? I heard recently of someone who felt like he wasn't getting too much help, but rather was just being taken advantage of. I feel bad. There are certain people that I feel right now I would drop w/e to help them. There are others I would feel I would have to help them. I would once or twice b/c I owe'd them, not b/c I particularly liked them.
I think its the people who don't expect anything from life, or anyone else. I remember when it got to that point in the guild. People wanted help getting blues. I would get on and deliver my normal speech how everyone was 60 already and I had to run everything with a PUG to get any gear. I didn't want to help them. Then we had other people in the guild who would always be going out of their way to help.
I guess I'm not just a very kind person. I wouldn't have even considered this though without WoW. I mean I get along. I can be cordial. I can be friendly. I can also be mean and sarcastic. But I wouldn't have thought about it. I actually probably would have defined myself as somewhat kind I think. I don't mind helping people . . . or do I? Well, obviously I do. I just wrote a page on how I don't and why. Yeah, its true....I'm not kind. That stinks.
You know, when I was in my younger years (heh) I would have days where (in my ignorance) I would say "wow, yesterday I only sinned like a few times." Now, speaking of physical actions that was true. But I was not in an attitude of submission. I was not in a place of humbleness. I did not spend my time in meditation on proper things. It wasn't that I was bad, but that I wasn't good. And we all know, not good = bad.
Its so hard to maintain proper perspective. The more I study theology, and then read about studying theoloy (mostly on the KJB issue, but it flows into every aspect of life) the whole point becomes obvious. Theology can only be properly done with a correct attitude of God. (yeah, dave we know this already) But the thing is, this attitude must be constant submission. We cannot know God except He reveal Himself. So my reading the Bible *must* be in submission to the Spirit or I just wasted my time. (well, per se)
Repentance is not a every time you sin thing. Repentance is an attitude. Sin is not something that happens occasionally. Your mind starts to wander in church? Sin. 5 minutes later is happens again? sin. It isn't like its just one sin and you can confess it all after church, and therefore just let your mind wander.
It is extremely hard to remember this. = / I find however that when I forget I sin. /sigh. Going to VB. I might get back to this when I get back. idk. 8:48
So I played VB. I invited some people. If I had not invited some of them then by time Kaylynn showed up we would have all been gone. However she didn't play anyway, and the other guy I invited didn't give us a chance to talk, and spent an annoying amount of time giving her her computer which apparently he was working on for something. She ended up staying for a while but we only had 5 so we didn't get to talk. It was interesting to say the least. And annoying.
So now, I'm just bleh. I got another email from Heather in the time I was gone. I think she caught my tone in the last one. She was just letting me know she may not come to any conclusion ever on this, and e-mails would be more rare since she has to study this more. Fine with me. I'm not in the best mood. I'm tired, I have a project to work on and I'm back to this odd jumble of thinking.
On the other hand, I have gotten more arena chests lately then in a long time. Only 10 more. Sounds like a lot, but I grabbed the last 7 rather quickly. Its sad though that the bright spot I reference is the STV arena. Seriously. Part of me is already not wanting to work BK. I can do it. I will be good at it again. I will do my job, and people will hate/love me. But bleh.
I can't help but think of all the money I will be needing...yes I already talked about it. Grats to you if you have made it this far in this post. Comments on novel length and such are not original but you are welcome to make them anyway.
Turns out my cousin just started work. Perfect timing. Now I will never get to see him. /sigh I want/need to laugh. Really laugh. I need to stop thinking. I have been and my brain is tired of the constant argument thinking right now. I can sit down and right 5 pages in an afternoon and its not hard. Yay. I couldn't before, but right now I didn't jump on my last prof when he said he was a 4 pointer....like there is such a thing. I have participated in discussion, but I'm slowing down, and it bothers me. I need to stay on top for another two days. Well, one day. I'm not sure going home will be a break yet though.
Only if I put off getting a job. But I need to go asap, b/c I need to be polite to them, and I need the cash. Otherwise, I might get Monday. Monday will be good. The weekend is undoubtedly busy. That isn't bad. I want to have everyone over. I need that too. But I need some time to just stop. I think.
So. . .I like apologetics. Its cool. I like logic. I can do that. God blessed that way. Part of me wants to stop school after this. I want to start saving. I don't know . . . and I'm not thinking clearly right now, and anything I say is most likely huey at this point.
I said bye to everyone at church Wed. It was weird how many people I have come to know. A deacon I had rarely spoke to told me he was glad to see me all year and was looking forward to me coming back. I got the comment I was a fixture. Pretty true. I sat by myself in the front. Every service. I will miss some of that.
We talked about altar calls, invitations and hero stories today. All bad. Well, that's not what the prof said, but I say it, and you can quote me on it....no, better not. b/c I said it without context. If you want to quote me, just make sure you realize there was no context.
Don't stand in front of your people and undermine the Bible. Wait....that wasn't today. But I figure we all need to be reminded of that on occasion anyway. Can't hurt right?
I'm still thinking. I am only writing to stop my brain from running. It slows it down. Basically. Maybe Corey is on vent. We could play poker....yes, I should be doing a paper. I don't need to hear that now, but thanks anyway.
That is the funny thing. People always like to tell you what you know, like you don't know it. I mean, its my paper. /sigh.
I'm tired of people. That's a sad fact. People are . . . that's just me reverting back to my arrogant self. Fast food will only bring that fact out more.
I heard that the District Manager told the store manager that she couldn't hire me. She talked him into it. He's a moron. I was always better than him, and apparently he hasn't changed. I hear she has changed and gotten better. I hope its true. I really do. We got along at first, but in the end things weren't great. But if shes better than I see no problems arising in 2 months. Plus, it would be nice to get along with her.
I saw a building for rent, and the first year was free. For some reason my brain couldn't come up with a purpose for it. I'm slipping bad. I used to walk buy buildings and think "If I could only get that place rent free for just a bit I could start my business." Now I see this nice building, good location, and I think "wish I had seen that before." Like I'm past my prime. FIE!! (I can say that right? oh well, I'm saying it.)
Someone said something about Shakespear in class. I could probably benefit from reading him right now. It sounds good, but at the same time it sounds like listening to "Into the West." Do I really need that sad song playing right now? Yes, it is a sad song.
Well....I'm getting on vent. brb Nope, Corey isn't there. Thursday....he golfed today. Idk what he's doing now....probly playing CoD2. Meh.
WoW holds no appeal to me right now. People want me to lvl, and I want to, but I lost it. I lost the appear of gear a LONG time ago. The appeal that kept me going was running something. I have nothing to run. My twink is almost to the boring part. I stopped PvPing. Granted this has been a busy week, but its just not easy to log on. But, I have nothing I say "I want to do xxxxx" No, I have nothing fun to replace it with atm. VB was fun.
I played on a team 2v3. They won the first game. I killed them the next two. Then I got the 3 team. We won again. Obviously. I woulda tried 1v4 just for the fun of it. Can't say I woulda won, but I woulda put up a fight.
I guess the appeal needs to be PvP at a high lvl. But honestly I think I stink at it. I was never too good at it. I could heal. I was PvE, and I could go PvP when I had a warrior. But then it was PvE for me. Lyss with me and 3 more healers, and we own'd AV every day, 3 times a day for a week. That was the height of my PvP. I went shadow for a bit, and hit like...rank 9 I think. Most likely I get to 70 and ruin the rank of w/e team I join. I don't understand the theory. I know the spells, and the stuff, but the timing/etc all needs to be lrn'd. And I lrn better if someone tells me than by trying to figure it out. I have little imagination sadly. I'm not sure why....I doubt it was b/c of TV/video games. I just don't think outside the box too much. Maybe here and there. I need another IQ test........
I should read Ecc. It fits my mood. Life is meaningless. All things die. Nothing is new. Laugh/cry/eat/drink, b/c you will die. Obviously this is a bad mood, and boarders on sin b/c of the depressing attitude. (I give myself the benefit of the doubt with "boarders" I know)
I have tried something new in my devos. Reading the Bible in the morning AND at night. Imagine that. Twice a day. Wow me. Its better for me I think. Its not like its lots more material, but I think it helps keep perspective, and set the mood for the day and then the end of the day.
1 Cor 11 is sure an interesting passage. The hair/covering material can be very convincing different ways every time you read it. Thankfully its not my problem, ;P
We are at 5.8 pages MS word. Good luck with this one. I think I'm almost done.
Ok, well. My body has recovered a bit from the adrenaline and the physical activity. My mind has perked up a tad due to the Vault I drank just a bit ago. I'm somewhat more calm I guess would be the word. I'm just tired...of everything right now. I don't want to pack. I don't want to drive. I don't want to take 94, to 894, to 90, to 94, to 196, to 27, to 46....or however that goes.
Its beautiful outside. Nice and cool. Dark. The fresh air is coming in through the open window.
Professionalism doesn't exist. Someone puts a PP together and it has a grammar error. You mention it and they then confide in you that they put the whole thing together that afternoon but everyone submitted a different part and it hadn't been checked yet. GG. Maybe run through it at least once before you show it in church....maybe?
One year working BK, my theme of February was "Everyone is stupid." I told everyone I worked with that that was the theme. They all knew it. I said it probably everyday. Whether that was good or not, I'm not commenting on. I said it and for the most part it was true. The word everyone was the exaggeration, and the word stupid carried the normal connotation not the techincal meaning. But with those stipulations understood by me I could make that statement truthfully. (heh)
So, were this February I would close with "Everyone is stupid." But its not. So . . . . . . the principle still applies outside the month anyway. Don't be stupid. It is something anyone can avoid do they so desire, but the fact is most people dispute the fact and thus don't even attempt to find the solution b/c they won't admit the problem....first step is what? Admitting you have a problem. Yes, you can pretend your comment is witty in that I need to admit I have a problem with long posts. Go for it. I'll cya all sooner or later....sooner this week or later at a wedding. Btw, there IS a wedding in August. The date has not yet been decided. I will keep you posted as I find out....but who knows, maybe I won't get invited anyway. Ok, that was uncalled for synicism....but its after 12 and I'm cranky and just claimed everyone is stupid. Call me on it if you want. I'm in the mood to argue to win, and not b/c I'm right. Yeah, and I'm not sure synicism is a word either. But it sounds good.
Ok, I'm out now.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Sunday post!!
So I dont usually post on Sunday. But today was a good day. God is good. Just no getting around it. So much to be thankful for.
My roommate left yesterday to go home for the weekend b/c they were having a big Garage sale weekend. He came back with a free Vacuum. We didn't have a vacuum for the whole year. Once we borrowed one, but think about that for a min. 3 guys living in a house without a vacuum. YUCK! So that was a blessing for sure. I can now not worry bout stepping on piles of dead bugs on my floor.
Church went well. We were packed tonight because the Acad musical grp showed up. It was good. Singing, bells, and then one preached. He did a good job. Better than I would have thought he would do. Better than I ever remember doing. I heard people say after "You can tell hes called to be a preacher." I couldn't, but it made me think of how bad I had wished I was for w/e reason. I'm not saying I won't or wouldn't, but just don't think that's what I'm supposed to do.
We had a College and Career thing after the service. I wanted to mention it to this girl who I wanted to get to know. We never really had a conversation but we were at least cordial to each other. Anyway, she walked out with her family while I was having a conversation with some other people. I watched and felt "rats." Then they walked back in and after a moment I was able to let her know we were going. And she asked if I was and didn't really give any indication as to whether she would show or not.
She did. And after some talking etc, I changed seats and then we talked for a bit. However, one girl wanted to engage me on the Bible issue. So I let her. I had a captive audience. The people who woulda disagreed were already sitting in a poor place to voice that, and then they just kept to themselves for the most part. Question after question. When one group went to leave, the one lady said she has a bunch of good tapes agreeing with me. I think it was all she could think to say that let me know she agreed even though she was silent the whole time.
One girl only left the topic after her ride told her she had to go. She wants to e-mail me about it. I'm game. She doesn't know, and I don't mind telling her. She has honest questions. Those are the best kind.
I ended up being the center of attention; which honestly, isn't hard in that grp. I think I worked for it, which looking back bothers me a bit, but those grps are always so dull, that what I did wasn't really for my attention, as much as to make things more lively. It could be viewed otherwise though. Then it was just 3 of us. The pastor's son, myself, and the girl. We talked for another 30 minutes probably. Idk what he was thinking. Wish I did. I never really got to know him. This was our first real conversation I think. But hes a cool guy and his best friend was one of my first friends out here.
We all walked out together, and then after he walked to his car she said she better say goodbye. Then she said I could e-mail her. Basically, made my night.
Funny, because it just so happens that I get to talk to this girl the week AFTER school gets out. I leave in 5 days. Oh well. We talked for a bit, and she asked a lot of questions, which kinda surprised me but I didn't mind answering.
I knew that I could handle the situation once I got to it. It was getting to it that had me baffled.
Anyway, I thought about keeping it a secret, but really, those of you who read this are probably the people I would have said "hey keep this a secret. . . ." So, yeah, w/e.
One of the girls/ladys played out of my sisters song book again. Butchered the song again too. /sigh. My roommate heard me say that and was like "wow, shes been playing for like 10 years." Yeah, my sister is just that good.
He also said I better leave before she gets here or I'm going to have my hands full with guys to deal with. /shrug. I can deal with them. =D
j/k Jenn
I know two different people who are both keeping secrets about some situations. Some of them are very close situations, but I only hear bits and pieces from either side, and neither side will let me tell the other. I'm in the midst of a web and if I don't tread carefully I will end up in trouble. Ok, not really, its not near that bad, but its kinda funny watching both sides, and me being privy to much of it.
My roommate and I already have great plans for next year. If the Lord wills we will do this or that. Yeah, if the Lord wills.
Gas is up to 3.20. It will cost me almost $100 to get home I bet. That is no good. Its going to cost me a bundle to go to work in Mt. P. too. Such is the boundary and the price of immortailty. Ok maybe not, but that quote did fit there.
I'm still a lvl 30 unfortunately. I was getting ganked by a stupid rogue, so I hopped on my favorite mage to camp them. I killed every horde I saw. 70 hunter going to just sit there and look at me. I killed him, then the 30 pally with him. I killed them all and went looking for more. I camped the rogue as long as I could, but rogues are easy to lose. Then I helped a dps twink pally get the arena chest. Stupid pally.
I put gel in my hair this morning because it was puffy. Then tonight I kinda just let it go...it wasn't the best looking, but it wasn't horrid. Yet, this night I get asked to take offering. So I'm in front of the whole church with fluffy hair. Hey, I can't complain after tonight.
I have a theory that if you log while dead you get rested XP. Twice I have logged, near Nessingways, but not in it, and dead, and when I come back I have half a bubble rested xp. I won't be running to BB. I can kill myself easier than that.
The cherry pepsi I drank is wearing off. But im 1 bubble from lvling
The one thing that coulda made this day better though, is if I had caught both the rare fish I needed in the contest. Yeah, that woulda done it, lol. But I'm not complaining.
We rented movies yesterday. Stupid stupid movies. What a waste of like....7 hours.
I lvl'd. But I then got immediately ganked by a 34, and 32 druid. The 34 couldn't one shot me and I could run, so he got a buddy. Oh well, I'm logging anyway. I'm tired. I should go put my second load of laundry in. brb.
I've been reading "The last twelve verses of Mark" by D. J. W. Burgon. I enjoy reading stuff by scholars. It is nice to read something that is not fluff. Grad school material is built for grad school. The text books are not student lvl, but they still talk down, and attempt to simplify. I like being forced to stop and actually read it. I flew through my NTI book. Flew. I sit down to read Turretin and I have a hard time not reading a paragraph multiple times, let alone skipping a word. Thinking if good for the brain.
Which, I happen to dislike emotion. We watched Equilibrium again Friday. It was good, but it reminded me of the frailty of emotion. Emotion is often subjective, and removes the objective. You don't think when you act emotionally, and emotions are capable of overriding the brain. When you do that you are in for a LOT of trouble.
But then you get to my extreme. I like black and white, right and wrong. Objective, logical conclusions that have been reached with solid reasoning. (btw, while I'm thinking on it, I heard recently there were a lot of people who were happy when I left the guild. Though I new some disagreed I didn't know any were flat out happy/relieved. That pauses me to stop and think. Which my brother had been trying to tell me for a long time. /sigh)
But, you stick feelings into a situation and you get stuck with the top grammaton cleric crying in broad daylight. noob.
On the other hand, feelings enable things that would otherwise seem impossible. Feeling of anger, feeling of entrapment. What's the saying? Always let them have a way of escape because then they won't fight as if they have nothing to lose. Something along those lines. It is the feeling that drives that. If it was logic, you would fight like that all the time. Your brain cant believe it is a matter of life and death when it knows of possible escape.
Further, it is often in moments of desperation that great feats are accomplished. Samson killed how many men with the jawbone of an ass? Yup. Idk whether he was scared or not, but thats a lot of people to kill and I doubt he thought he could out run them.
Which brings me to the next point. All the logic you ever have cannot prepare you for the inevitable feat accomplished by your foe. It is bound to happen. You can best prepare to minimize the chances and the damage that is done, but you cannot predict what it is, nor what the result will be. Sun Tzu woulda had something to say about this I'm sure. Know your enemy and know thyself. Neo only knew himself. It took him a LONG time to know Smith. If he woulda had Sun Tzu instead of the oracle he woulda been better off. Ok, obviously not, but I wanted to say it anyway.
No, I have not been reading the art of war lately, but it is a good book and should be read by everyone. If you haven't do it. You can find it for free online, or borrow it from me.
http://www.chinapage.com/sunzi-e.html
http://classics.mit.edu/Tzu/artwar.html
Well, I just realized I really need to get over to the office and fill out my time card before the morning. I really don't want to, but hey, its the last time this semester. I'll try to write sometime else. Feel free to call me. I got a module this week, but my evenings are open. peace.
My roommate left yesterday to go home for the weekend b/c they were having a big Garage sale weekend. He came back with a free Vacuum. We didn't have a vacuum for the whole year. Once we borrowed one, but think about that for a min. 3 guys living in a house without a vacuum. YUCK! So that was a blessing for sure. I can now not worry bout stepping on piles of dead bugs on my floor.
Church went well. We were packed tonight because the Acad musical grp showed up. It was good. Singing, bells, and then one preached. He did a good job. Better than I would have thought he would do. Better than I ever remember doing. I heard people say after "You can tell hes called to be a preacher." I couldn't, but it made me think of how bad I had wished I was for w/e reason. I'm not saying I won't or wouldn't, but just don't think that's what I'm supposed to do.
We had a College and Career thing after the service. I wanted to mention it to this girl who I wanted to get to know. We never really had a conversation but we were at least cordial to each other. Anyway, she walked out with her family while I was having a conversation with some other people. I watched and felt "rats." Then they walked back in and after a moment I was able to let her know we were going. And she asked if I was and didn't really give any indication as to whether she would show or not.
She did. And after some talking etc, I changed seats and then we talked for a bit. However, one girl wanted to engage me on the Bible issue. So I let her. I had a captive audience. The people who woulda disagreed were already sitting in a poor place to voice that, and then they just kept to themselves for the most part. Question after question. When one group went to leave, the one lady said she has a bunch of good tapes agreeing with me. I think it was all she could think to say that let me know she agreed even though she was silent the whole time.
One girl only left the topic after her ride told her she had to go. She wants to e-mail me about it. I'm game. She doesn't know, and I don't mind telling her. She has honest questions. Those are the best kind.
I ended up being the center of attention; which honestly, isn't hard in that grp. I think I worked for it, which looking back bothers me a bit, but those grps are always so dull, that what I did wasn't really for my attention, as much as to make things more lively. It could be viewed otherwise though. Then it was just 3 of us. The pastor's son, myself, and the girl. We talked for another 30 minutes probably. Idk what he was thinking. Wish I did. I never really got to know him. This was our first real conversation I think. But hes a cool guy and his best friend was one of my first friends out here.
We all walked out together, and then after he walked to his car she said she better say goodbye. Then she said I could e-mail her. Basically, made my night.
Funny, because it just so happens that I get to talk to this girl the week AFTER school gets out. I leave in 5 days. Oh well. We talked for a bit, and she asked a lot of questions, which kinda surprised me but I didn't mind answering.
I knew that I could handle the situation once I got to it. It was getting to it that had me baffled.
Anyway, I thought about keeping it a secret, but really, those of you who read this are probably the people I would have said "hey keep this a secret. . . ." So, yeah, w/e.
One of the girls/ladys played out of my sisters song book again. Butchered the song again too. /sigh. My roommate heard me say that and was like "wow, shes been playing for like 10 years." Yeah, my sister is just that good.
He also said I better leave before she gets here or I'm going to have my hands full with guys to deal with. /shrug. I can deal with them. =D
j/k Jenn
I know two different people who are both keeping secrets about some situations. Some of them are very close situations, but I only hear bits and pieces from either side, and neither side will let me tell the other. I'm in the midst of a web and if I don't tread carefully I will end up in trouble. Ok, not really, its not near that bad, but its kinda funny watching both sides, and me being privy to much of it.
My roommate and I already have great plans for next year. If the Lord wills we will do this or that. Yeah, if the Lord wills.
Gas is up to 3.20. It will cost me almost $100 to get home I bet. That is no good. Its going to cost me a bundle to go to work in Mt. P. too. Such is the boundary and the price of immortailty. Ok maybe not, but that quote did fit there.
I'm still a lvl 30 unfortunately. I was getting ganked by a stupid rogue, so I hopped on my favorite mage to camp them. I killed every horde I saw. 70 hunter going to just sit there and look at me. I killed him, then the 30 pally with him. I killed them all and went looking for more. I camped the rogue as long as I could, but rogues are easy to lose. Then I helped a dps twink pally get the arena chest. Stupid pally.
I put gel in my hair this morning because it was puffy. Then tonight I kinda just let it go...it wasn't the best looking, but it wasn't horrid. Yet, this night I get asked to take offering. So I'm in front of the whole church with fluffy hair. Hey, I can't complain after tonight.
I have a theory that if you log while dead you get rested XP. Twice I have logged, near Nessingways, but not in it, and dead, and when I come back I have half a bubble rested xp. I won't be running to BB. I can kill myself easier than that.
The cherry pepsi I drank is wearing off. But im 1 bubble from lvling
The one thing that coulda made this day better though, is if I had caught both the rare fish I needed in the contest. Yeah, that woulda done it, lol. But I'm not complaining.
We rented movies yesterday. Stupid stupid movies. What a waste of like....7 hours.
I lvl'd. But I then got immediately ganked by a 34, and 32 druid. The 34 couldn't one shot me and I could run, so he got a buddy. Oh well, I'm logging anyway. I'm tired. I should go put my second load of laundry in. brb.
I've been reading "The last twelve verses of Mark" by D. J. W. Burgon. I enjoy reading stuff by scholars. It is nice to read something that is not fluff. Grad school material is built for grad school. The text books are not student lvl, but they still talk down, and attempt to simplify. I like being forced to stop and actually read it. I flew through my NTI book. Flew. I sit down to read Turretin and I have a hard time not reading a paragraph multiple times, let alone skipping a word. Thinking if good for the brain.
Which, I happen to dislike emotion. We watched Equilibrium again Friday. It was good, but it reminded me of the frailty of emotion. Emotion is often subjective, and removes the objective. You don't think when you act emotionally, and emotions are capable of overriding the brain. When you do that you are in for a LOT of trouble.
But then you get to my extreme. I like black and white, right and wrong. Objective, logical conclusions that have been reached with solid reasoning. (btw, while I'm thinking on it, I heard recently there were a lot of people who were happy when I left the guild. Though I new some disagreed I didn't know any were flat out happy/relieved. That pauses me to stop and think. Which my brother had been trying to tell me for a long time. /sigh)
But, you stick feelings into a situation and you get stuck with the top grammaton cleric crying in broad daylight. noob.
On the other hand, feelings enable things that would otherwise seem impossible. Feeling of anger, feeling of entrapment. What's the saying? Always let them have a way of escape because then they won't fight as if they have nothing to lose. Something along those lines. It is the feeling that drives that. If it was logic, you would fight like that all the time. Your brain cant believe it is a matter of life and death when it knows of possible escape.
Further, it is often in moments of desperation that great feats are accomplished. Samson killed how many men with the jawbone of an ass? Yup. Idk whether he was scared or not, but thats a lot of people to kill and I doubt he thought he could out run them.
Which brings me to the next point. All the logic you ever have cannot prepare you for the inevitable feat accomplished by your foe. It is bound to happen. You can best prepare to minimize the chances and the damage that is done, but you cannot predict what it is, nor what the result will be. Sun Tzu woulda had something to say about this I'm sure. Know your enemy and know thyself. Neo only knew himself. It took him a LONG time to know Smith. If he woulda had Sun Tzu instead of the oracle he woulda been better off. Ok, obviously not, but I wanted to say it anyway.
No, I have not been reading the art of war lately, but it is a good book and should be read by everyone. If you haven't do it. You can find it for free online, or borrow it from me.
http://www.chinapage.com/sunzi-e.html
http://classics.mit.edu/Tzu/artwar.html
Well, I just realized I really need to get over to the office and fill out my time card before the morning. I really don't want to, but hey, its the last time this semester. I'll try to write sometime else. Feel free to call me. I got a module this week, but my evenings are open. peace.
Saturday, May 5, 2007
Saturday.
Yesterday I was an usher at graduation. It was easy and we left after the offering. HAh! to all those who had to listen to the rest of that stuff.
Then I got home at 11am. There was nothing to do all day. It was so nice. I haven't had one of those days out here, in like a LONG time.
I was dared to tell someone's GF, that he said she wasn't cute....so, I guess I have to now. Right? That's how dares work. /shrug
I lvl'd, so im at 30 now, woot! Maybe I'll level again today.
No1 is online which means im missing something big. I heard my cousin and wife were coming to my house....and I'm not there. I hope all your jello slips through your fingers and that your pizza has burnt crust!
Speaking of pizza, we made frozen last night. But we added cheese/ham/pepperoni and it was MMMMM good. Filling to. We are making another one tonight I think.
I finished all my hours at the gym b/c my boss is the best. So, no, I'm not at the gym today. I'm sitting at my PC blogging....weird I know.
Grinding is severly impacted by me blogging though.
They are nerfing twinks....but in the end I think I like all the changes. Some they decided not to do, which made me happy, and the ones they are going through with I find better overall. The only downside is that you used to have to be good to beat someone with super gear. Now you could just get lucky.
We went to a bookstore this afternoon. It was closing. But it had been closing for 2 months so there was nothing there. My roommate bought another desk though. Hes desk happy. Actually, his brothers will be using his first desk next semester and this new one was only $10.
We played VB for two hours Thursday. It was great.
I'm not going to the resort. Something happened and they just cancelled the study. So, I'm going home in 1 week. An answer to prayer. Now the decision is simple.
41 rogue being a jerk and ganking me continuously. I'm logging on my favorite mage to deal with him.
My roommate is cooking something up. Sounds good and he says he feels like sharing so im not gonna complain.
Not much more to say, so I'm going to log for now. I might post later....not sure how much I will keep this up during the summer, but I'll try.
Then I got home at 11am. There was nothing to do all day. It was so nice. I haven't had one of those days out here, in like a LONG time.
I was dared to tell someone's GF, that he said she wasn't cute....so, I guess I have to now. Right? That's how dares work. /shrug
I lvl'd, so im at 30 now, woot! Maybe I'll level again today.
No1 is online which means im missing something big. I heard my cousin and wife were coming to my house....and I'm not there. I hope all your jello slips through your fingers and that your pizza has burnt crust!
Speaking of pizza, we made frozen last night. But we added cheese/ham/pepperoni and it was MMMMM good. Filling to. We are making another one tonight I think.
I finished all my hours at the gym b/c my boss is the best. So, no, I'm not at the gym today. I'm sitting at my PC blogging....weird I know.
Grinding is severly impacted by me blogging though.
They are nerfing twinks....but in the end I think I like all the changes. Some they decided not to do, which made me happy, and the ones they are going through with I find better overall. The only downside is that you used to have to be good to beat someone with super gear. Now you could just get lucky.
We went to a bookstore this afternoon. It was closing. But it had been closing for 2 months so there was nothing there. My roommate bought another desk though. Hes desk happy. Actually, his brothers will be using his first desk next semester and this new one was only $10.
We played VB for two hours Thursday. It was great.
I'm not going to the resort. Something happened and they just cancelled the study. So, I'm going home in 1 week. An answer to prayer. Now the decision is simple.
41 rogue being a jerk and ganking me continuously. I'm logging on my favorite mage to deal with him.
My roommate is cooking something up. Sounds good and he says he feels like sharing so im not gonna complain.
Not much more to say, so I'm going to log for now. I might post later....not sure how much I will keep this up during the summer, but I'll try.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
im done!
I am free. Until next week when summer school starts. Its a nice feeling for the week.
Last night went well after I finished my exam. I played poker and won about another $10k. Made my friend mad because he kept losing and I kept getting the cards I needed. He was seriously frustrated.
My roommate and I went and got taco bell at midnight. mmMMmm good.
But then I played some WoW and had my best hour of farming ever. Made 150g in an hour. That's right folks, it was 25g/10min. Then I put all those Primals up and they ALL sold in under an hour, thus making my mats turn into immediate cash. Nice nice.
I've got a ton of twink gear, since I just buy it when its cheap. I bought a cloak for 30g and one for 30s, sold the first one for 70g, so now I'm up 40g and a cloak.
I have nothing to do tonight. I'm at the gym for 5 hours, and I was told it would be dead. I believe it. People are already getting ready to leave. Some still have finals tomorrow. It is sunny and warm, and who wants to go to the gym?
I have no homework, so I'm stuck doing nothing.
I am now known as a Turretin lover. Whenever my roommate doesn't think I'm listening to him he says something like "and then I/he quoted Turretin." I usually catch it. People don't seem to understand that you can play video games and listen at the same time. /shrug ;)
I remember when running a 5-man took an hour, but UBRS took 1.5-2. I really hope these 5-mans don't take that long. I can't be running stuff that takes 2 hours. That is a waste of my time for 1 piece of gear.
(You can see that now that school is done my mind is free to think about more important things.)
Was I overanalyzing my situation? Was I not displaying faith? Hmmmmm. Well, there is something to be said for planning ahead. And I wasn't saying I didn't think I could get a job. I can, and I know I can. Alls I have to say is, "ok, I'll take it." My money problem is not the biggest issue. It is stuff like me being home and not being able to get Saturday off when people are coming over. That is a bigger problem then making 2k instead of 4k. Money comes and goes; mostly goes, but it does come in too.
Oh, my secret I said a while back was that I knew the next President of the college when people didn't yet. Anyway, they announced it last Thursday so its not a secret anymore.
I think I'm buzzing my head tomorrow. I was going to wait till after graduation, but I am kinda sick of my hair. I wish I had a cute barber I could go to.
www.askaninja.com Go there, click, watch, laugh.
And now, at 5:34 I have nothing to say. I can't play poker here, it doesnt work. I can't play WoW here either obviously. I can only blog. My internet course is dead obviously. I guess I can check SI, though I don't think I'm involved in anything on there right now.
If I ask my friend to check on 10-6 then that will make it seem like that's what I want and that I'm coming for sure. Maybe I should just call her, and talk to her myself.
My boss is the greastest. I needed 6 more hours, and since I was asked to usher my roommate and I were talking thinking we should be getting paid but he didn't think they were going to pay us. So I talked to my boss and he verified that we were going to get paid. But then that turns out to be only 4 hours, and I needed another 2. So, we are looking at it and then he says "But you have to be at practice on Thursday right? Just count that." So, I will be done with my work this week. Booyah!!
I found all the star wars music in midi form online. And now that I have speakers it doesn't ever have to be quiet in my office.
Oh, and I got an A in Greek. Didn't do as well as I was hoping on my test, but it worked out anyway.
Just sticking this here in case I want to use it later: http://www.wow-pro.com/node/600
and maybe this one: http://www.freewarcraftguides.com/sitemap.php
one more just in case: http://www.calloffate.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=37911&PN=3
4 hours down. 1 to go. 2 people have shown up. yay.
Logging off now. Going to work out early since there is no point in sitting here any longer. 9:16.
Last night went well after I finished my exam. I played poker and won about another $10k. Made my friend mad because he kept losing and I kept getting the cards I needed. He was seriously frustrated.
My roommate and I went and got taco bell at midnight. mmMMmm good.
But then I played some WoW and had my best hour of farming ever. Made 150g in an hour. That's right folks, it was 25g/10min. Then I put all those Primals up and they ALL sold in under an hour, thus making my mats turn into immediate cash. Nice nice.
I've got a ton of twink gear, since I just buy it when its cheap. I bought a cloak for 30g and one for 30s, sold the first one for 70g, so now I'm up 40g and a cloak.
I have nothing to do tonight. I'm at the gym for 5 hours, and I was told it would be dead. I believe it. People are already getting ready to leave. Some still have finals tomorrow. It is sunny and warm, and who wants to go to the gym?
I have no homework, so I'm stuck doing nothing.
I am now known as a Turretin lover. Whenever my roommate doesn't think I'm listening to him he says something like "and then I/he quoted Turretin." I usually catch it. People don't seem to understand that you can play video games and listen at the same time. /shrug ;)
I remember when running a 5-man took an hour, but UBRS took 1.5-2. I really hope these 5-mans don't take that long. I can't be running stuff that takes 2 hours. That is a waste of my time for 1 piece of gear.
(You can see that now that school is done my mind is free to think about more important things.)
Was I overanalyzing my situation? Was I not displaying faith? Hmmmmm. Well, there is something to be said for planning ahead. And I wasn't saying I didn't think I could get a job. I can, and I know I can. Alls I have to say is, "ok, I'll take it." My money problem is not the biggest issue. It is stuff like me being home and not being able to get Saturday off when people are coming over. That is a bigger problem then making 2k instead of 4k. Money comes and goes; mostly goes, but it does come in too.
Oh, my secret I said a while back was that I knew the next President of the college when people didn't yet. Anyway, they announced it last Thursday so its not a secret anymore.
I think I'm buzzing my head tomorrow. I was going to wait till after graduation, but I am kinda sick of my hair. I wish I had a cute barber I could go to.
www.askaninja.com Go there, click, watch, laugh.
And now, at 5:34 I have nothing to say. I can't play poker here, it doesnt work. I can't play WoW here either obviously. I can only blog. My internet course is dead obviously. I guess I can check SI, though I don't think I'm involved in anything on there right now.
If I ask my friend to check on 10-6 then that will make it seem like that's what I want and that I'm coming for sure. Maybe I should just call her, and talk to her myself.
My boss is the greastest. I needed 6 more hours, and since I was asked to usher my roommate and I were talking thinking we should be getting paid but he didn't think they were going to pay us. So I talked to my boss and he verified that we were going to get paid. But then that turns out to be only 4 hours, and I needed another 2. So, we are looking at it and then he says "But you have to be at practice on Thursday right? Just count that." So, I will be done with my work this week. Booyah!!
I found all the star wars music in midi form online. And now that I have speakers it doesn't ever have to be quiet in my office.
Oh, and I got an A in Greek. Didn't do as well as I was hoping on my test, but it worked out anyway.
Just sticking this here in case I want to use it later: http://www.wow-pro.com/node/600
and maybe this one: http://www.freewarcraftguides.com/sitemap.php
one more just in case: http://www.calloffate.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=37911&PN=3
4 hours down. 1 to go. 2 people have shown up. yay.
Logging off now. Going to work out early since there is no point in sitting here any longer. 9:16.
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